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On the topic of weird spiritual/mystical experiences...Im kegboy, and this is my story,warning, its a long one.. 
Ever since I was a young child I've had the same reoccuring dream. I enter a strange old house, Ive entered a diffrent portion of the house in a different reoccuring dream, and procceed to climb a staircase. What unsual is that the steps are made out of drawers which open up behind me. When I get to the room at the top there is a painting of the virgin mary (which is odd becasue Im not catholic and alot no special significance to her). She is in her classic garb. Its robins egg blue, and for some reason that idea occurs in the dream, that its "not just blue but robin's egg blue. She says something to me, in a very lyrical and etheral voice. I dont catch what she says but get the impression taht it doesnt matter that I didnt catch it. Ok thats it for the background.
A few years ago I at a dinner party at a friends. I had only had one beer that afternoon and later a small glass of wine with supper. Ther were about 6 of us ther and we slept over. Im lying on the floor at night and I suddenly get a image of someone who looks like the person in the mary painting. I only see her face and ist very large, all encompassing. Suddenly I started to giggle, much to the annoyance of the other people trying to sleep. The giggling continues for hours and by this time my stomach muscles are screamming in pain. Somewhere in the back of my mind I remeber a passage from a bio of Crowely where has asks for samadhi from the spirit that contacted him. So I decide to ask for the thing that I knew wouldnt be from my subconscious or some such thing. I wanted Einsteims e=mc2 explained. And "poof", I started to really laugh and was pounding my fists against the carpeting because "I knew it!, I undestood what he meant and it was sooo childishly simple". NexthingI know Im floating over the earth and every time I focus on some portion of it it immeadiatly zooms in until I cna see buildings, then people, then individual blades of grass the the atoms and even more than that. Then nexthin I know Im seeing all the planets and then the solar systems and the furthur and furthur untill it all looks like a giant sphere fiulled with sparkling marbles....
Then I fell asleep.
Ever since then i havent been able to do a single creative thing (im an illustrator). I still have the talent but there's no oomph to it..its all very technical and without spirit to it...
ok folks, whats it all mean??? |
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