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On my successful suicide attempt

solomon

09:52 / 30.10.04

well i don't really know what to say. i feel like im reincarnated into a body i already had. i also feel like a murderer. i feel like ive just been born. this is a bit weird.

i saw the void, empty darkness forever, and i knew what i was stripped of ego and all the masks of personality. y'know that zen koan : what was your face before you were born? i knew the answer to that one, only now i don't remember.

the man i was yesterday is dead, so who am i now?

any advice from the land of the living? i could use some timely words of comfort right about now.

ONLY NICE THINGS

11:25 / 30.10.04

OK, this is the thread to post to. Solomon, welcome back to the land of the living. I'm going to suggest moving this thread to Temple for the moment, where people are likely to have more useful information about ritual suicide (wprt Odin myth, I suspect, and/or Mister Six in the Invisibles). We can move it back later if the convo moves on more generally to suicide or identity...

Less searchable M0rd4nt

12:14 / 30.10.04

Have just requested the move.

Alex's Grandma

13:17 / 30.10.04

Solomon, what did you actually do, in terms of the ritual and so on ? Please expand a bit, if you feel like you can.

Sean the frumious Bandersnatch

19:13 / 30.10.04

this, uh... this WAS ritual, right? You're not having your stomouch pumped at the moment or anything?

Rain

22:18 / 30.10.04

Solomon man, this is the original shamanic experience... Remember your Terence McKenna? "A shaman is someone who has seen the wiring under the board." We all die, but some of have the fortune to come back, changed, but still recognisably us. Just stay cool, and keep your eyes open...

This shit is big. Smile.

LVX23

01:15 / 31.10.04

Seek answers and meaning but allow for time to process. Death & rebirth. Transformation. Scorpio. The Hanged Man. Butterfly. The midnight sun. Kephra the scarab beetle. The crossroads. These are some avenues you might pursue to find meaning. Don't feel lost. you're still you - only much more so.

cusm

21:45 / 02.11.04

Ack spooky man. You did this on the 30th? That's the night I completed my own death/rebirth working of about the past year by spending about half an hour (ritually) dead. Right on. Congrats on your own rebirthing!

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