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quote:Now things are better, but I feel a little afraid of going back, because I am totally out of condition, and I know My teacher is not going to be happy about that, so...
In many ways...I identify with it in the same way...fortunately, the whole organization is a self regulated one. The dojo itself, didn't exist much after I went to college. The relationship is active and still extends to the black belts or people who were there long enough to keep things going. And as far as training...most people aren't as physically fit as when the dojo stood. Since it's not functioning under the same demeanor, people visit when they can and it's not quite a regular thing.
It's also difficult to do it on your own...you also get out of sorts with being able to get back out on the floor. I still find myself looking at things daily and walking into a motion that later becomes some exploration of technique. What's interesting though is that the journey never really ended. I'd say my understanding is better. But that can also be the problem...
Since then, my approach has changed. There's a bit of self-guilt involved in the whole thing. Part of me wanting what I did when I was a bit younger but the older and new found experienced me is looking for things that tend to depart from the fold...kind of confusing... |
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