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Saturday Night

18:43 / 18.09.04

Well i'm bored and am sat here with flu, skint aswell and there's no chance i'm going anywhere. What about you lot? Are you planning on going out, staying in too, just got back in and pissed?

I'm bored so i was wondering.

I shall go and play Soul Calibur 2 for a bit and then come back to this.

18:54 / 18.09.04

It's only afternoon here, and I'm bored as well. I was going to go to a beer festival, but it's raining and chilly and not the type of weather one feels like trekking through just to get drunk on cold wet beer, especially when one threw away one's Payless boots last spring and one has no boots at all now. I was going to watch the baseball game, all leisurely Saturday style, but it's fucking 13 to 1 in the 8th. So I'm going to dork out on the internet all day until I think of something better to do.

19:10 / 18.09.04

I'm sitting here quite drunk, drunk in a good way though - just finished burning Shaun of the Dead onto as DVDR and it worked which is cool... listened a little to the new Shatner album and about to go get the bus to magical Vauxhall - all is well in the world of bear.....

Solitaire Rose as Tom Servo

19:41 / 18.09.04

Resident Evil 2! And then home and in bed fairly early since I have to be at work at 7:30 in the morning.

Damn job.

20:03 / 18.09.04

I'm on my own feeling sorry for myself. Decided not to go out because I've been going out on my own a lot lately and it's only making me feel worse. "Boyfriend" dumped me this week. Turns out that he was never "under the impression that we were seeing each other" - stupid thing to say after 2 and a half fucking months. So trying to figure out why my "relationships" never last longer than a few weeks. Lots of other things going wrong at the moment as well. Got a new tattoo yesterday. Needed some physical pain to distract me from the emotional pain. Unfortunately the tattoo doesn't hurt anymore. I've been watching some porn just now and I've been crying. Decided not too drink cos I'm an emotional wreck already, alcohol would only make it worse. Could read a book but not really in the mood just now. It's awfully quiet, could put some music on but there are just too many CDs to choose from. Still hoping that the last two and a half years have just been one big massive nightmare and I will wake up soon and he will be lying next to me.
So I'm not going out tonight, not drinking, not listening to music, not reading and there's nothing on TV. Which is why I'm here. Whinging. Again. And it's not making me feel any better. I hate the internet. I really do. And I'm so going to regret posting this tomorrow. Fuck it. So this is how it feels to be lonely etc.

20:10 / 18.09.04

Been working today. Very tired, and also a physical ache across my back, neck and shoulder. Still, at least I should be able to catch up on some sleep now that I'm not due to work until Wednesday. Just ate some leftovers, had a couple of beers and watched CSI. No intention of going out. Might read a bit of Splinter in the Minds Eye and drift off to sleep.

20:17 / 18.09.04

Shit, sorry to hear that mice, i hope things pick up for you soon. I can perfectly relate to you having relationships that don't last longer than a few weeks too, it sucks, but we've gotta have some luck sooner or later so stay strong!

I never seem to find women that are anything like me, so i can hardly ever think of stuff to talk about, or i'm just not interested in preteding to be like them, so i'm in for a wierd ride i guess.

Fuck it!

More people to check in PLEASE!

20:20 / 18.09.04

It's quarter past five and I just got off work. I'm going to campus to meet a friend and to drive him out to buy guitar strings. Then, while he tries to remember how to play guitar, I will either (A) investigate the possibilities of making beats with GarageBand, or (B) read the rest of Sleeping in Flame, by Jonathan Carroll.

PS - weather is awful. Torrential Rains before, heavy winds now.
PPS - I'm hungry and should probably be thinking about dinner.

Cloned Christ on a HoverDonkey

20:37 / 18.09.04

I'm at work. Just polished off a packet of Cadbury's Snaps after getting a £450 jacket off eBay for £70.

Just about to make a coffee, so's I can continue watching Once Upon A Time In America in the office next door (1 hour in, 3 to go). Been here three and a half hours, only eight and a half left to do.

I watched Kaena The Prophecy on DVD last night - some mind-shattering animation going on there, but the story's a little crappy.

Looking forward to getting my jacket.

And mice, really sorry to hear about your situation. These things do get better over time. Go out and buy something pointless. And maybe a drink or three wouldn't be an entirely bad idea?

21:10 / 18.09.04

Just got in from work, tired but happy.. (it was the big Pennsylvania-German festival today). Am quickly scarfing down dinner (sausage, perogies, cheese, peppers) before jumping on a bus back to Hamilton (1 hour away) to go to a semi-formal dinner for a friend's birthday... whew.. gotta run!

21:18 / 18.09.04

Ooh, have a nice time Baz!

Me: in, with a paintbrush and a bottle and the Bob Harris show, getting up and hitting 'refresh' every 20 minutes or so. This is what has become a perfectly normal Saturday night for me. And God help me, I really like it this way.

21:51 / 18.09.04

still aching from work, after a day teaching archery my back is bloody killing me.

All my freinds have gone back to uni, and i dont start till thursday, plus im too poor to go out. so it im going to hang round here, before going to finish my pages in the barbelith notebook much later when im all insomaiky and creative

(btw bed your pages are awsome, bastard, ive got to follow them)

21:52 / 18.09.04

Wow, it's cool to know that someone can stay in on a saturday night and feel perfectly fine with it Bed Head. That's neat, i hope i manage that myself at somepoint.

Things are looking up a bit now, my brother had MONEY that i could borrow. We went into village and i have a bottle of Evian, a small bottle of Heineken, a small bottle of (this is wierd and new to me) Vodka 'Mudshake' Chocolate, (that should help the flu move it's ass outta my system) aaaaand :

Speedball 2100!

It's the PS1 version but i'm praying it works on my PS2. They have a game shelf in the local supermarket and it was a tenner, so i'll try that out shortly. I have most of the JLA TPB American Dreams to read too and a book on Shamanism, so all i need is for the 'Mudshake' to help me out and early sunday morning should be better than i thought.

Seriously, who's heard of Vodka 'Mudshake'? I'm either gonna smile or sink when i've had a swig..........smells good.............yeah! It rocks!

Phew. I thought i'd try it and let you know what i thought. It's Baileys really with a slightly different taste.

Goodness Gracious Meme

22:15 / 18.09.04

Heh. Happy sarrady-night-in'er no.2 reporting.

Am feeling cosy at being home and dry after staying away last night and getting wet walking home. Have caught up slightly on domesticky stuff, which=good.

Also had a couple of very interesting online conversations which have been helpful to a friend and thought-provoking for me. Done some planning for a workshop/possible academic project and now am happily parked in front of Blackadder II, which aside from being retro-joyous, is much funnier than I remembered.

Yay for Saturday nights in...

22:31 / 18.09.04

Oooh, Blackadder 2. Rowan Atkinson has never been so fucking sexy, before or since. Tights and a ruff. It’s the weirdest thing, if you dare to think on it.

In fact, someone should start a vogue for Blackadder 2 parties, as an alternative to toga parties, or Rocky Horror or whatever ghastly fancy dress themes usually prevail. I’d quite like to be in a roomful of people dressed like that, once in my life.

Have ditched whisperin’ Bob, about an hour of his shtick is my limit, and I’ve rediscovered an Oscar Peterson record at the back of a pile. Blimey, and stuff. I’ve forgotten how nice it is: pianos tinkling like waterfalls, all the way down your back.

(Puck: hey, cheers dude. I needed that.)

Goodness Gracious Meme

22:37 / 18.09.04

It *is* really rather sexy, actually. He's pleasingly skinny/sinewy as well (currently watching the Bishop of Bath and Wells episode, B has just been harried from his room, clad only in pants, by a whip=wielding bishop...)

22:53 / 18.09.04

*manfully resists temptation to start quoting Blackadder lines*

Goodness Gracious Meme

22:56 / 18.09.04

< tempt >

oh g'waaaaan...

< / tempt >

23:04 / 18.09.04

I didn’t get where I am today by quoting willy-nilly from British sitcoms. I’m not a *sitcom-quoting* person.

Er..

..you couldn’t help me out, could you, Bengali? Bit of a cock-up on the quotage front.

Goodness Gracious Meme

23:12 / 18.09.04

Oh, shut up, 'Bernard'

ONLY NICE THINGS

23:34 / 18.09.04

Just taken an early bath from Duckie in Vauxhall, in order to get an easy journey home. Lots of ecstatic singing along to "First of the gang to die", and Roza Lugosi's paean to zombie brain-eating was also quality. Good time all round, really. Pondering doing Open House tomorrow...

23:40 / 18.09.04

Just got home from celebrating friend's boyfriend's 40th birthday and have now remembered that own 40th birthday is in less than 3 weeks. V drunk now.

23:53 / 18.09.04

40th birthday ... I remember that.

Beaujolais until good and drunk and then the Coach and Horses on the way home ... Sta'dee neet ya now!

23:54 / 18.09.04

Watching repeats of COPS, and remembering how much I hate the little homilies the cops in question seem to feel need saying. "That stuff's bad for you, you know? You'll be thinking twice about smoking meth now, won't you?" "Yes sir." Some guy drives up into the hills to smoke some meth, why should I care?

Looking forward to being woken up at 3am by people throwing plates down a mineshaft outside my window again.

23:56 / 18.09.04

I bought a bunch of vegetables. A really big bunch of vegetables. Do you ahve any idea how weird that is? Vegetables? Giving away my money, for only vegetables?

It's fucked up! I hope this shit never catches on.

That was in the middle of a nine-hr shift cashiering in a supermarket. Then I practically danced my way to my girlfriend's reading Whitman's 'Song of Myself', which made me nearly shout out "Yes!" aloud many times, in honour of all the late-nite drunk conversations in crappy pubs about bodies and hip-hop and the million ends of Lord of the Rings that (why?) that poem reminds me off. At some point during this, I greeted and made happy some old ladies leaveing church.

Then I baked a cake and some brazil nuts in dark chocolate and eventually made it home and watched The O.C., laughed at all Seth's jokes about being an old man, then realised they were my jokes about being an old man.

And now I'm here, at almost two in the morning, and am incredably pleased to find that bip is well. Would I come in fancy dress to Jack's halloween party to see her? I think I might think about it, yes.

Solitaire Rose as Tom Servo

02:08 / 19.09.04

RE2 - action movie with zombies. Removed brain and enjoied it a lot.

Then theater bounced and watched HERO.

Damn.

DAMN.

Fookin beautiful.

Now off to bed where I will read for about a half hour and then go to sleep. Unless someone here want to go to work for me tomorrow.

02:17 / 19.09.04

Everyone should go see Hero...

Well I'm back home now and this theme on my PC makes my text look a strange blue - I'm about to go to bed but its just after 4.15 so I think its allowed....

Goodness Gracious Meme

14:27 / 19.09.04

Pin: awwwwwwww, yr a sweetie.

< Ben Stiller >

Do it. Do it.

16:35 / 19.09.04

Let's see

Went out for my mates 21st, ended up going to the same two clubs we usually go to as everyone wanted to go somewhere else and it was reaching a Hydra-like level of organisational confusion.

Ended up going with my mates [lads] and a set of girls we know, all of whom we've had some kind of relationshippage with over the last year or so. It's pretty incestuous to be honest as everyone's slept or nearly-slept with everyone else but anyway sexual tension was at RED ALERT.

Memorable moments from last night

*Trying to physically restrain my mate from kissing/groping a girl he has no real interest in and was hours earlier saying 'DO NOT LET ME GET WITH THIS GIRL'. He got with the girl. I'm a terrible wingman.

*Everyone arguing on the dance floor in a bizarre Mexican Mosh-Off. Silence has never deafened Rage Against the Machine like that.

* My mate, Brian, trying to get with Lisa, even though he's with Suzie. Yes. Asks if I want to go to the bar, at the bar he asks me what drink I want and I just blurt out 'A Budweiser and a packet of don't fucking cheat on your girlfriend, please!'. Not happy with that.

So, yes, feeling rough in more ways than one this morning.