What are we dealing with here?
To put it in my own wierd way :
They know.
They know that i know.
They know that i know that they know.
But who are they?
OK i've been the joker around here for a while now, so it's time to clear away or come to a better understanding of some of this.......stuff that's in my head, because it's full of it. There's so many mad and crazy experiences that i couldn't possibly recount them all, they're just too numerous and my memory isn't very good any more.
So this year's been pretty fucking mad, just as mad as any other year i guess, but i'm here to get some ideas and opinions from you people because to tell the truth, i don't think i could be in a better place. I'm totally sober right now so there's no drunken madness in me, just some wild ideas and some questions.
I've had run in's with entities for a long time now, about four to six years, and not all of it's been bad, but the problem is i've never been very open about what i'm doing with myself because it's always been hard knowing what to say and what not to say to others. So i've seen these Grays, and i've fought one of them, (i've heard that there are two kinds and i believe that, i have also had good experiences with the more astral type, but not as memorable or real, possibly because of the physical nature of the negative experience.) i've seen one of these Reptiles, and although i thought that i'd be having a fight with that thing aswell, i didn't. It just looked at me. I've woken up in the middle of the night, sat up in my bed and i've been shoved onto my back by something unseen, i've been fucked up and nowhere in a hostel and i've woken up to see a robed, dark figure looking down on me from the side of my bed. Many other wierd things aswell, but these come to mind first.
The big question is : how real is this? Are we in an illusion where this stuff just appears, or is it all somewhere in the mental processes? Do these things make your mind merge planes with them or do they just come into ours? If someone else had been in that hostel room with me that morning, would they of seen the same figure?
I can call up a Vampire as an ally, is it real? Is it part of me or is it part of something else? Did it come from the Orion system or from Sirius, or did it just come from a plane nearby? Is it real or is it in my head?
Well i've wrestled with some of these fuckers, and i'll tell you something : it feels pretty real to me. The best bit is making peace with them and then having allies, but what about when the next thing comes along? What about the next thing after that? And the next? When does it stop? In a full blown, visible magickal war?
There must be some answers to these questions. Pick one out if you want and tell me what you think. I'm pretty sure that this forum is one of the best places to do this on the whole net, and i don't think i even have to see the whole net to say that.
Barbelith visited me, and it burned right through my head with it's light. It was the realest thing i've ever felt in my life. So real that i refrained from posting about it because i was too scared about what to say and what not to say. Now i'm doing it because i have to.
Science says that everything has it's equal opposite. Ok then, where is ours? On this planet with us, or in some other parrallel universe? Is there a way through? What do you believe about Dulce, Area 51, The Manhattan project, Grays, Reptiles, Elves, Agartha, Sirians, Orion(ites?!), Andromedans, Freemasons, Skull and Crossbones, Illuminati, GM Crops, Dragon lines, Ley lines, Vampires, Nanotechnology, Satellite surveilance, Microwave rays from the Military, CIA mind control?
Of course i'm not asking a seperate question for each of these things, i'm just trying to put across ideas so that you can think about these things, because maybe it will trigger a reply that has more things to associate from.
This isn't a conspiracy forum, i know that, but if we can be as powerful at times as we can, then think about what we could do if we had the power and resources to do more or less what the hell we wanted to do, and the free time to do it. No more work that we didn't want to do, just infinite focus on our goals. I'm sure we could do some pretty wild stuff. Some hugely magickal stuff.
Some people have the power and the resources to do more or less what the hell they want to do.
Buddhism connects with the Matrix when it comes to making things real in our heads. Buddhsim tells us that the world is a projected illusion that we make real with our minds.
Neo says to Morpheus in the Matrix : "I thought it wasn't real."
Morpheus says : "Your mind makes it real."
It's only a film you idiot, get off it already.
Yeah i get that, but i was just giving an example. I'm no Matrix freak no more, i used to be, but now i'm more or less over the obsession. The first film was a buzz. The wierd thing is that in the third film Neo is told that Smith is his opposite. What is our opposite? And where is it? The Invisibles uses the same ideas to get it's point across. It's just two sides of the same thing. I saw a thread about Lentation, well if you use fiction Magick, like invoking characters and stuff like some of you do in here, you can do some pretty fucking insane stuff when you use some of the ideas from the Matrix aswell.
But that's not the point of the thread. The Matrix has finished, so has The Invisibles, but our lives go on, i get that. That's why i'm here, because after years of obsession with fiction, art, conspiracy and magick, i'm in need of a clearout, a new start, and i figure that if i can get some of your opinions on some of, any of the things in this thread, i'll be in a better position to make some decisions about what i'm going to do next.
I could just as easily just make them now, but some of you are a lot wiser than me, and i'm kind of need of some help.
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