First step. I'm stuck in myself and I need to get out! The depression fog washes over me far too often, and I become trapped in this self box which prevents me from experiencing the world. Not fun.
Anti-depressants make things easier and happier, but they certainly don't help me escape myself. Besides becoming narcissistic-delusional, I end up getting into really horrible situations and being fine with them. Psychiatry is not a genuine way for us to recover from our hells/hexes/chemical imbalances/whatever-you-want-to-call-this-stuff. What I need is something genuine.
In the east people go on shamanic journeys and end up reaching miracles. Sudden breakthroughs. What I'm thinking about is doing something along these lines. Many of you are familiar with these sorts of journeys. I know they're not as simple as WHOOSH! HELLLLLO GURU! CURED!
A spiritual healing retreat seems like the thing to do- a great way for me to open up to the world and experience the pleasures of the univerese. Since I don't wish to do anything that would put me in harms way, I was thinking there might be some sort of shamanic group healing retreat that I could sign up for. I know these things happen in India, Tibet, Egypt, Costa Rica, Iceland... could someone be kind enough to point me (and anyone else who is curious) in that direction? Whether it's a Terence Mckenna-esque psychedelic journey through the amazon or something utterly and competely unheard of I'd be very interested in hearing your suggestions. |
