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Thesis angst

 
 
Disco is My Class War
18:00 / 20.04.04
So, I get to hand in my Honour's thesis in a little under two months. I am going crazy. Sometimes it's crazy bad, can't write, can't think, just freeze under the weight of realising what an awfully huge and ridiculous task I've begun. Sometimes it's crazy good and I write 2000 words in three hours, and I realise I know exactly what I'm talking about.

However, my social life has fallen in a heap. I haven't been out for weeks, and when I do go out, I sit in a corner feeling guilty because I'm not at home reading or writing. I'm so obsessed with the thing that I feel compelled to walk up to completel strangers on the street and try to explain what I'm doing, in an effort to make someone understand just how. Important. It. All. Is. My live-in partner has taken to walking into my study unannounced so she can bust me net-surfing and try, unsuccessfully, to prevent me from procrastinating. She says I'm much harder to be around when I'm procrastinating, because I get in such a bad mood. I get on manic highs where I'm working so hard I can't actually slow down my brain, and hence can't sleep. Then I crash and don't work for days...

Anyhow this thread is just for anyone who's doing some kind of huge writing project (could be a thesis, could be a novel, could be anything on any subject) to blurt about how terrible/scary/wonderful/mindfucking it all is. Rants on the subject are welcome, like, for example, I learnt tonight that I could condense the history of the term 'transgender' and its incursion into contemporary trans politics into 500 words. This has never happened before.

Rant away, then... Or just please pat me on the head and tell me to run away and work some more.
 
 
Cloned Christ on a HoverDonkey
18:20 / 20.04.04
>pat<

>pat<

Off you go, then.
 
 
pomegranate
19:11 / 20.04.04
what is yr thesis on? answer my question and then get back to work!!
 
 
angel
20:32 / 20.04.04
Hey Mr Disco!

I'm afraid I have no talent with couplets, how about some "Yay! Mr Disco!" cheerleading and encouragement? (I'll bring out the pom poms if you're not careful) I'm afraid it's gonna have to do!

You know it's gonna be alright! The bits where it feels like your brain is trying to kill you, is acutally your subconscious sorting everything into into neat little packages, which on occasion are sent to you and appear as the 3 hour 3000 words sessions. My brain works like this too, and it's insanity to fight it - and you've already discovered that resisting the process just hurts! Maybe try productive, yet mundane activities that keep the body busy, but still allow the mind to wander and continue to process.

Try to be a little kinder on yourself, your brain and your partner and learn to ride this system. Everything you need is in your head, it's just finding ways to let it out without explosions.

Much love and hugs to you!
 
 
Cailín
03:03 / 21.04.04
I feel your pain. I presented my thesis yesterday. I did a little procrastinating along the way, too, and I've developed a theory as to why. Since the thesis is typically the last big step in your eveolution as a student, it hurts to see it form, because you know that soon enough it's going to be over. I've gotten pretty good at being a student, and when people ask what I do, it's so easy to come out with, "What, me? Oh, I'm a student." Now that it's over, and I'll soon be heading out to work, I feel the looming identity crisis. So long as I hadn't finished my thesis, I had one major obstacle between me and the rest of my life. Putting it off seemed like it would stretch the process out, giving me more time to avoid reality. Of course, this is not really the case, since a deadline is a deadline, and you really do have to finish on time. The other thing is, no matter how hard you work, and how much time you put in, you'll probably be able to convince yourself that you could have done better, if only...
That being said, get back to work. Being done feels pretty good, all things considered. To employ a cliché, this is a marathon, not a sprint. And the creative process is not a steady stream of brilliance. It has to happen in fits and starts. Hang in there. You'll be fine.
 
 
Ex
08:02 / 21.04.04
It's survivable. I'm about to wend my way to a small market town binders, who will charge me 100 quid to slap my thesis between covers. Then a copy gets shlepped off to the British Library and I achieve immortality.
I just wanted to gloat, actually, but please accept it as reassurance and support.

Practical tips; I found it helpful to skim read it and mark each chunk of your argument down the margin (very quickly) with highlighters. You may find that some bits are in the wrong place, or that one point is actually two points squidged up small together under an innapropriate heading, like shrews sheltering from rain.

Thesis humour: I just told a work collegue that I was taking my thesis to Lewes.
"Your sister?"
"No, my thesis. I haven't got a sister. Mind you, if I did, it would probably be quite fun to have her..." [I suddenly see where this sentence is going but am powerless to prevent it] "...bound in leather."

So now I'm an incestuous necrofetishist.
Good luck.
 
 
The resistable rise of Reidcourchie
08:27 / 21.04.04
Thanks Ex that just cheered me up.

I'm just about to start work on my Masters thesis so I think I'll pop back into this thread when I have a little bit more time (I was on a Leonard Cohen break).
 
 
Lurid Archive
11:32 / 21.04.04
When I wrote my thesis, I was tutoring a lot and getting very little sleep - about 3-5 hours a night, for the last couple of months. The only time I went out was on a Saturday night to the slimelight, when I would get no sleep at all and then spend the next day marking student assignments.

All of that was interspersed with my playing Resident Evil 2, which meant that I was terrified of MC whenever she walked into the room, thinking she was a zombie.

Towards the end, I would often be unsure as to whether I was dreaming or not. You'd think that giving a tutorial would be a giveaway, but it wasn't. I was hallucinating/dreaming either math or zombies pretty regularly. My social skills took a knock during this period.

I'm not sure that I would recommend that approach, even though it was kinda interesting. So I wouldn't worry too much about not working all the time. Its probably a good thing.
 
 
Bear
11:38 / 21.04.04
Can someone answer a few questions about writing a thesis for me?
Roughly how many words are they?
How much do they decide your overall grade of your course?
Who judges them, is it one lecturer or some kind of governing body?

Never went to Uni/College was too busy working down the mines....
 
 
Grey Area
11:56 / 21.04.04
Roughly how many words are they?

Undergrad: 10,000 to 15,000 words
Masters: 20,000 to 30,000 (MPhil: 30,000 to 45,000)
PhD: 90,000 to 120,000 words (depends on your area of specialisation)

How much do they decide your overall grade of your course?

This depends on the uni, course and level. At undergrad level at the uni I'm at, the mark you get counts towards your final degree mark just like the mark you'd get for a taught module. At Masters level, I think it has a higher impact on your final mark, as it is more of an independent research project. And then at PhD...the thesis is everything. You either complete it to the viva board's satisfaction or you don't.

Who judges them, is it one lecturer or some kind of governing body?

Undergrad & Masters: Your supervisor assigns a mark, which is confirmed by an external examiner.

PhD: You have to sit through a verbal examination (known as a viva, defence, or any of a hundred other, fear-inspiring names) held by a board of three academics in your field. Usually two professors from your home university and one external. The external will most likely be an expert in your field of study who knows more about this than you can hope to have achieved in three/four years of research. These three individuals conduct a rigorous dissection of your thesis, questioning you on whatever caught their eye when they read it. You have to defend your hypothesis, claims, research design, research results, discussion...basically everything. At the end of all this, there are a number of options:
1. You are given a heary handshake and can call yourself 'Dr.'
2. You are given a provisional title, based on the carrying out of minor corrections. Usually within a two-three week deadline, based on the amount of corrections to be made (structure, grammar, spelling, etc).
3. You are told your thesis needs major reworking. Extensive re-writes are neccessary, possibly a complete verhaul of your conclusions and discussions. Deadline for this is generally in the region of six months.
4. You fail.

There's a wide range inbetween those 4 options of course...

My thesis is progressing at a pace matched only by antarctic glaciers. Writing everything down in a clear and structured fashion is proving more difficult than I first imagined. It's sucking up every waking hour, and yes, I too have lost my social life. If all goes well this will see its end in July. By this time I will in all probability have fully fledged RSI, be clinically blind from staring at a crappy cut-price university monitor and be reduced to eating cold spaghetti from cans in my office for sustenance. Anyone who's considering a PhD: Start writing the damn thing from day one. No, really, start writing something, anything. It's better than finding yourself faced with blank space and no idea where you're taking this thing with four months left to go...
 
 
Bear
12:04 / 21.04.04
Cheers Grey Area... you peeps sure work hard.

I could go on a little more about why people do it all but I don't want to derail the thread.

I got a Grade 3 in German you know.
 
  
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