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Duane
21:58 / 01.04.04
I would like to share with you some of my major spiritual experiences and the intents
stemming from these experiences.

I was wounded in Vietnam in 1969 and became alcoholic. I drank until entering AA in 1976. After 3 months in AA, in desperation I fell to my knees beside my bed, lowered my head and said, “God help,” and surrendered. I had the image of my head in a guillotine and said, “yes—go ahead.” Then the room lit up with a ball of Light and Love. Peace and Love flowed over me. I was forgiven and was loved in spite of my past, present, or even future actions.

The next major experience occurred in 1983 after working the 12-step program for 7 years and sitting in zazen (Zen meditation) for about 10 months. The first month, after I started sitting in zazen, I began feeling this pressure or energy mass across the bridge of my nose. I raised and maintained this energy for 9 months and then on June 22, 1983 it became very strong and I started moving through a tunnel of clouds as this energy pierced through my forehead. My old ego was left behind as I merged into the “Ocean of Love and Light.” I was the “All Compassionate One” and realized there is no birth or death; cause and effect; or time and space: that all form (material world) is a “thought” in the consciousness of One that is being continually thought which gives the “impression” of time and space-cause and effect--it’s all an “Illusion.” Then, as if I turned my face, I looked back on form and saw suffering. I was moved out of that Great Compassion to return to the world to end this suffering. Upon returning, my old self had died and a spiritual self seemed to have taken its place. I did not recognize or have any emotional attachment for my wife or son at this point as being “my” family, but had the memory of what Duane’s life and past had been like and now I was playing the role for him while I helped others to become enlightened (My new “self” was not alcoholic and I left AA in 1986).

After some time, unsuccessfully, trying to get Duane’s (my) wife interested in spiritual things and being unable to express the Truth to most people so that they could understand, I gave up and decided just to die. I went into deep meditation to re-enter the Light and to remain there. But instead of entering the Light, I came upon a wall of light. It was like a translucent bathroom window (you could see light behind it but couldn’t see through it). I held my “attention” against the wall and there was a surge of energy as I tore or passed through the wall into a Utopia. It was so beautiful. Everything gave off Love and Glory. The colors were so vivid and things seemed much more real than this world. Movement could be done by thought or gliding. The animals had intelligence and we communicated through thought and shared an unattached Love. The utopia was of my own creation. The gross separation between the material things and myself was gone. I was one with a creation of my own making that I was now living and walking in. I went down this pebbled road and stopped to examine a pebble. Even the small pebble was more beautiful than anything I had ever seen. It was like it emitted Glory and Love. Then I passed a blue lake and pine grove and went up to a house. I went into the house and up to the second floor where I entered a white bedroom. It had large windows across one entire wall looking out over a beautiful landscape. I recognized the bedroom to be my own bedroom and that I could stay if I wanted to. At that moment, I thought of my wife and son and started to lose consciousness, falling out of that form through several dark dream-type states until I was back in this form with my family. I returned to this world because of my “attachment” to my wife and responsibilities to my son (After the experience, I found that the “Wall of Light” checks out with a verse I found in Genesis 3-24: The “Flaming Swords” at the entrance to the “Tree of Eternal Life”.

Once again, I unsuccessfully attempted to get my wife or many other people interested in spiritual matters, and eventually I gave up again. I was having little or no effect here in ending the suffering of this form and my life was unhappy. So, I decided to go back into my spiritual world and stay there. I went back into a death meditation and came upon the wall of light again. I passed through the wall into the same Utopia as before. But as before, with the exception of animals, I was alone. It was like Adam before Eve. While in this Utopia, I became aware that I didn’t have to remain tied to my earthly wife since she wasn’t “truly” interested in a spiritual life. She wasn’t willing to let go of her earthly life and attachments here, or to even turn the TV off once in awhile. But my experiences indicated that I needed a spiritual companion. I was certain that this Utopian World would always be there for me, so I made the decision and returned to this world to find a spiritual mate to join me in the afterlife. She will have to be someone
with the will, power and knowledge to detach from her human form, or to be willing to learn.

Many years—still waiting & watching....

In closing let me say that in 1975 I was sleeping in an orange grove as a homeless unemployed alcoholic, stealing bread from supermarkets to survive. I was suffering from many grave emotional and mental disorders. So I have a responsibility beyond my ”self” to try to help others to find the Spirit and become enlightened. I do this by getting this knowledge out and directly working with people if necessary. With that said, I will be happy to send enclosing of my writings. I hope you find them helpful. If offended by anything that I have written please just throw the stuff away—I’m only here to help, if I can. Feel free to contact me and I will be happy to send some essays and methods on enlightenment and merging consciousness.

LITS (Love In The Spirit)
Guru4tru@aol.com
 
 
illmatic
08:12 / 02.04.04
Bumping this one 'cos I thought it was very interesting. I don't really have anything to add other than cheers fora fascinating account. Cheers Duane.
 
 
Nobody's girl
11:08 / 02.04.04
Duane, I don't doubt the profundity of your experience but I would warn against egotisim. Perhaps your wife and others are learning different spiritual lessons in life? There is no better or worse in spiritual experience because everything has its own value, in my opinion.
 
 
FinderWolf
17:02 / 02.04.04
Very true, nobody's - and what struck me was that there's a son who wants a father somewhere in there. I sure wouldn't like to feel my dad abandoned me because he wanted to go be one with the universe. But I am very glad you're on the path, Duane - just be careful and keep a sense of humor and perspective about yourself as you go through things. And even though spiritual pursuits matter, 'reality' matters a little too - as the Zen master said, "meditate, and after you eat, wash your bowl."
 
 
akira
08:12 / 03.04.04
Be nothing special. When your tired go and lay dawn, when your hungry eat food, move your bowels. The ignorant will laugh but the wise will understand.
 
 
blukachina
23:52 / 03.04.04
There is a new energy that was born at the Spring Equinox of March 1995. It is filling the consciousness of the world known and unknown. It concerns being yourself, living in your truth, being what you ARE, being Your Truth. Life is all about change, which means that the person endeavoring to learn an ancient custom should be cautious about becoming trapped in the dogma that might be embedded in it's tradition.

The old ways do not necessarily apply to today's world. They were designed for situations as they existed then. Take the knowledge from the history of a thing and apply it to The NOW, to Yourself. Learning to master the now is the only way one can truly affect change. It is truly a matter of Alchemy. At each moment we are creating reality and it is so important to be conscious of and reponsible with this power. The ego must serve us.

The world made manifest in "reality" is the true reflection of the one inside and cannot change until We do.
 
 
Duane
19:20 / 01.07.04
“That we should no longer be children tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men in the cunning craftiness by which they lie in wait to deceive, but speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into him...” --Ephesians 4:14-15

ESSAY IN TRUTH

When we ask questions in search of spiritual truth, we’ll never find the answer that will satisfy our questions because:
1.) The need that we are trying to fulfill within ourselves by asking intellectual questions cannot be touched or filled in the least through intellectual knowledge, no matter how great or correct that knowledge may be. Knowledge cannot bridge the separation between oneself and the Ultimate Reality. That can only be bridged through the actual merging of one’s own being into the Ultimate Reality, which can only happen through personal experience. “You search the scriptures, for in them you think you have eternal life...but you are not willing to come to Me that you may have life” (John 5:39-40). It must be experienced.
2.) We are taught through reason and logic that something is either true or else it is false, so we phrase our questions based on that reasoning to acquire an answer that must separate true from false or right from wrong. Therefore, all the questions we normally ask as to “Is this true?” or “Is this false?” or “Is this belief better than that belief?” are all wrong questions—or, better said, wrong logic. If we are to get an inkling of the truth, we must look deeper into the question and instead of asking whether something in right or wrong we must change our logic and ask the question, “What does it do?” And we need to feel “within” ourselves what takes place if we actually believed in any particular concept, religious doctrine, or philosophy.

It is common sense that if people found the truth in China, Japan the U.S., India, or any other place, that the truth they’d find would have to be the same. But their expression of that truth would very greatly, depending upon their cultural influences, language, and customs. This is to say that in fact every religious belief, concept, and philosophy is correct. Using our normal, everyday reason and logic, everyone would agree that this statement is absurd. How, for instance, could a religion believing that Christ is the Son of God and one not believing that Christ is the Son of God be equally true? Or how could one that believes in reincarnation as opposed to one that believes in Heaven and Hell also be equally true? Very simply: wrong logic. Although they’re all equally true, they’re also all equally false. The truth cannot be held in words. It must be experienced. Religious beliefs, concepts, philosophies, etc. are methods to lead a person to that inexpressible, experiential truth. Once again, we must ask, “What does believing and practicing this make happen within me?” And here we find, below the surface, a commonality or sameness of all religious belief systems and an identical leading to that one Truth out of which these religions grew.
For example, if I were to believe in reincarnation (including karma) in its simplest form, I’d know that no matter what took place in my life, I could live life after life until I got it right, so I wouldn’t be troubled so much in my present life situation. And if some calamity happens during my present life, the impact of that calamity (the worry and grief over the situation) would be slight because according to that belief, it would be a retribution of some previous negative action on my part that was being paid back. And through belief in karma, one can actually feel calm and grateful in negative situations. If I am Christian, I believe in Heaven and Hell, but because I would believe that Christ died for my sins, then I would be heaven-bound no matter what, and life’s experiences can be tolerated by my having faith in the hereafter. These are two examples of two completely different ideologies that produce the same effect, which is a reduction in fear and worry (i.e., a reduction in thought). If you look through all the different rituals (Buddhist meditation; Old Testament sacrifices; Christian prayer, communion, or singing of hymns), you’ll find the same result occurs: reduction of thought.
Descartes said, “I think; therefore, I am.” To phrase this closer to the truth, one would have to alter it a bit and say, “I think; therefore, I appear to be.” To go a step further, the reverse is also true: “I don’t think; therefore, I am not.” The “I” in “I don’t think” is my normal, everyday self, and the “I am not” is God (or, better said, self-God realization). This means, then, “I cease thought; therefore, I experience God.” On that simple truth rests the validity of all religious beliefs and practices as methods to bring about a reduction in thought, which leads to spiritual experience. In looking a bit deeper into the statement “I don’t think; therefore, I am not,” there is an important truth that becomes apparent. That truth is that what we are seeking is already present, and that what stands between spiritual experience and our present ignorance is simply the activity of our mind. When our mind ceases thought, we automatically awaken to our true nature and our life’s problems are ended. “...the truth shall make you free” (John 8:32).
Now the problem: No matter what religious method or path we should choose to believe in and follow, the best that can be accomplished is only a reduction in thought. Any effort to cease thought entirely will fall short because it requires thought to make that effort. The only exceptions I’m aware of are extremely dangerous drugs or accidents where someone may momentarily “die” and be revived. You’ll hear them speak similarly of life as an illusion and the utopia or ocean of love and light that lives within. Anyway, by normal means, it is “humanly” impossible to see “God.”
The solution: The solution cannot be explained. It, too, must be experienced. That is, when thought is reduced sufficiently through meditation, prayer, or other religious methods, there is within us a power or energy that will rise and manifest itself within the space or room that exists in the absence of so many thoughts. “...out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water, but this spake He of the Spirit...” (John 7:38, 39). This “conscious contact” with the power within is experienced by most as a pressure or energy mass across the bridge of the nose, between the eyes (forehead). In the beginning, it may feel like a headache. This manifestation of power is called many different names by the various religions: Christians: Holy Spirit, Christ Within, Christ’s Name, or The Word; Jews: Light Within, Spirit of God (Rauch); Hindus: rising kundalini (Prana), Zen Buddhism, the ox; Chinese, Chi. Although the names differ, the pattern of development is the same, and that is: following a religion in which there occurs a reduction in thought brings about a conscious awareness of this manifestation of power and when cultivated or allowed to manifest, it’ll become strong enough to allow the activity of our normal thinking mind to rest securely within “it” and cease thought. In that no thought, the manifestation of power is the vehicle which carries us into “The Kingdom of God” or “Nirvana.” “As many as received Him, to them gave He power to become the sons/daughters of God, even to them that believe on His name” (John 1:12).
Even though we are manifested and without thought, we still retain awareness, or a witnessing capability, and our Will; therefore, this is as much something that happens to us as it is something we permit and help to take place. And as we are lifted out (or, as Zen would say, “as we let our minds and bodies fall”, we will always be in awareness of what is happening but not aware of where it’s leading us. This moment is called a “leap of faith,” a leap that can be halted by us at anytime if we are not ready, due to our fear of the unknown or our clinging to our present life as we know it. This point brings to mind one of Christ’s teachings, which is, “Whoever desires to save his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for My sake will find it” (Matthew 16:25). Also, another: “You must be born again” (John 3:7). It goes almost without saying that to be born again, we are first talking about facing what seems to be our own death, which, to our normal mind, brings about a great deal of fear and apprehension. But to the “manifested mind,” we find our security not within our earthly existence but within the comfort and security of the manifestation itself.
The question that usually arises at this point is, “Will I be able to come back?” Once again, wrong logic. In truth, nothing actually changes; yet everything has changed for us. The death is not a dying but a complete breakaway from our limited mind into the truth of who and what we really are and always have been. The “death” is the death of ignorance. We have now become enlightened or awakened to our true nature and walk in the knowledge of what we are, of what life is, where we came from, and where we’re going. “The Comforter (Holy Spirit, Raised Power, or Manifestation) will teach you all things and bring all things to your remembrance” (John 14:26).
So, to sum up what is important in seeking the truth: it has to be through one’s own personal experience or revelation, which is brought about by a contact and reliance upon that inner power or manifestation. The initial inner contact with that power is “not” brought about by increasing our knowledge, concepts, or beliefs, but by actually a reduction of thought or a surrender of our “self,” which is our thinking mind with all of its beliefs. As Christ said, “It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich men to enter the Kingdom of God” (Matthew 19:24). A “rich man” is rich in ideas, beliefs, attachments, and thoughts. As Adam was expelled from the Garden of Eden because he ate of the tree of knowledge, so we must surrender our knowledge to re-enter the Garden of Eden and eat of the tree of eternal life (or, as said in Zen, “return to our original nature”. And all of this happens naturally, of its own accord, for anyone who desires it and raises the power within. “And he said to them all, “If any man will come after Me, let him deny himself (no thought), and take up his cross daily (raise the manifestation; power), and follow me (let go)” (Luke 9:23).

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CENTER DOT METHOD
(Place 2 dots about 2.5 inches apart on the top edge of a piece of paper)

There are six major similarities within the teachings of all religions:

1.) There is a power “inside” each person.
2.) Its original position is somewhere below the navel.
3.) It must be concentrated together (quickened).
4.) It must be raised.
5.) It will center in the forehead.
6.) It will pierce through or open to enlightenment, liberation, eternal life.

As said, this “energy mass” or “power” is called by different names according to the various religions: the Holy Spirit, the Light Within, Christ Within, Christ’s Name, The Word, Power Within, Sexual Energy, Rising Kundalini, the Ox, Chi, etc. The “piercing” into enlightenment is referred to as Satori by the Zen Buddhists, the sixth chakra opening by the Hindus, the third eye opening by the Occult, and the sixth church or the Church of Philadelphia by the Christians (see Rev. 3:7-13: “...and he shall go out no more”. Also see Rev. 22:1-5: “...They shall see His face, and His name shall be in their foreheads.”
A simple method of reducing thought and raising the power to the forehead is the “Center Dot Method.” Sit comfortably in a chair, spine erect (but not rigid), and look over the two dots that you have drawn at the top of a piece of paper, to a point about three feet away. (Note: If you use 2 different colored dots, such as red and yellow, you can mentally balance the center dot to a perfect orange. This will center the manifestation in the best possible position for enlightenment). You will “notice” three dots (the center dot is an overlapping of the two dots). Carefully lower your eyes to look directly at the center dot and bring it into focus. Use this for meditation. As you concentrate on the dot, count your breath from 1-10 and back again; breathe from the stomach. Keep the body relaxed.
After practicing this for a while, a pressure will be felt between the eyes or in the forehead. Gently breathe into the pressure when exhaling to strengthen it. Remain relaxed and put your “attention” on the pressure now as your stare is fixed on the center dot.
After the power has been strengthened and stabilized, this “energy mass” should be moved around to gain some control over it. First, concentrate on a spot on the top of your head and tap your forehead lightly with your fingers. The power will move to the top of your head. Now reverse the process to return it to the forehead. This “energy mass” should be raised in the morning and manifested throughout the day, with time given at night for direct concentration on it. Eventually, it will become ready, gain enough power, and open to “enlightenment” and the beginning of a spiritual life.
A final word: With love, I pray that you continue in the Spirit after Enlightenment and let the Spirit lead you and show you your rightful inheritance. As the now born-of-spirit son/daughter of God – a new creation – a new world of great splendor and eternal joy awaits you. “In My Father’s house are many mansions...” (John 14:2).

Guru4tru@aol.com
 
 
elkhart
10:36 / 20.07.04
Within each of us are Two Trees;

The Tree of Good&Evil Duality/3lower chakras
The Tree of Life and Immortality/ 4 higher chakras

Which Tree your consciousness habbitously resides in has a lot to to with the ratio of Depletion/Repletion of Vital Energy in your body called, Prana/Ormus/ Philosophers Stone.

Alchemists are Connoisseurs of Vital Energy

The Theory of the Practice consists of various ways of isolating and distilling the vital energy.

A few simple methods are;

Drink Wheat grass it is Ormus Rich
Do Deep Pranic Breathing
Wear a Magnetic Heamotite necklace
Wear a Tibetan Medical Bracelet, it attracts the pranic field to your body.
Do a good deed a day
Alchemy Literature like the Golden CHAIN OF hOMER is about understanding how this energy functions in the manifest world.
These all provide a sense of well being and make it easier to lift ones consciousness into the higher chakras.

You Can Increase the Ratio by
 
 
elkhart
10:37 / 20.07.04
Within each of us are Two Trees;

The Tree of Good&Evil Duality/3lower chakras
The Tree of Life and Immortality/ 4 higher chakras

Which Tree your consciousness habbitously resides in has a lot to to with the ratio of Depletion/Repletion of Vital Energy in your body called, Prana/Ormus/ Philosophers Stone.

Alchemists are Connoisseurs of Vital Energy

The Theory of the Practice consists of various ways of isolating and distilling the vital energy.

A few simple methods are;

Drink Wheat grass it is Ormus Rich
Do Deep Pranic Breathing
Wear a Magnetic Heamotite necklace
Wear a Tibetan Medical Bracelet, it attracts the pranic field to your body.
Do a good deed a day
Alchemy Literature like the Golden CHAIN OF hOMER is about understanding how this energy functions in the manifest world.
These all provide a sense of well being and make it easier to lift ones consciousness into the higher chakras.

You Can Increase the Ratio by
 
 
elkhart
10:37 / 20.07.04
Within each of us are Two Trees;

The Tree of Good&Evil Duality/3lower chakras
The Tree of Life and Immortality/ 4 higher chakras

Which Tree your consciousness habbitously resides in has a lot to to with the ratio of Depletion/Repletion of Vital Energy in your body called, Prana/Ormus/ Philosophers Stone.

Alchemists are Connoisseurs of Vital Energy

The Theory of the Practice consists of various ways of isolating and distilling the vital energy.

A few simple methods are;

Drink Wheat grass it is Ormus Rich
Do Deep Pranic Breathing
Wear a Magnetic Heamotite necklace
Wear a Tibetan Medical Bracelet, it attracts the pranic field to your body.
Do a good deed a day
Alchemy Literature like the Golden CHAIN OF hOMER is about understanding how this energy functions in the manifest world.
These all provide a sense of well being and make it easier to lift ones consciousness into the higher chakras.

You Can Increase the Ratio by
 
  
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