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Hi.
I've been having one hell of a problem as of late, probably why I'm posting this at 2.30 in the morning. Here it is.
Recently, maybe in the last month or so I've really been questioning a lot of my base assumptions about who I am and where I'm going. Now I now that sounds like adolescent drivel (and coming from somebody going on twenty next month it's a little immature), but this is keeping me awake at night...
I've had the persistant thought in my head to join the Church, become a priest. That's gonna sound crazy to the atheists and chaos magickians who populate this board. Hell, I'm an atheist and chaos magickian and it sounds crazy to me. Ask anybody who knows me 'what's the last thing XXXXXX will become?' and they'll say a priest.
I dunno, but this thought has been in the back of my mind for months, I can't sleep without it intruding.
Recently I've had it pretty easy emotionally, I've matured a lot in the last two years, so I don't think this is a weak mind looking for a big-daddy meta-narrative to latch onto.
On one hand I think I'd make a good preist. I love to listen to people, help them out, I could take a skeptical approach to the Bible without getting bogged down in Dogma. But then again I'd have to drop out of Uni, I'd probably alienate a lot of my friends and if I don't make it as a preist I've wasted a good few years of my life that could have been spent getting my degree.
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