I really can't help seeing at least an element of homophobia in there: it sounds uncomfortably like "ah, who cares if a bunch of queers die? Why should that be important?"
i totally understand what you're saying here, and i don't want to diminish that. see below for more.
Maybe you can explain to me a bit more clearly, Jack & dizfactor, why you think that the end of the world can't be metaphorized through AIDS.
well, obviously i can't speak for Jack, but as for my part - i've been reading your posts on this topic, and i find myself reading and nodding and agreeing, but despite seeing your points, at the end i'm still coming to a different place than you seem to be. this has led me to wonder why exactly it doesn't work for me. i think i've narrowed it down to two main things.
first, and i think most importantly for me, i think i'm coming to feel that it's not that AIDS in NYC in the 80s is a bad metaphor for the end of the world, but that the "End of the World" is itself a metaphor rooted in a sense of self-importance that i just don't click with. it's not even so much that this particular exercise in apocalyptica is a particularly bad one, but there's a certain epic narcissism, as you put it, inherent in most, if not all, apocalypses which really doesn't resonate with me at all.
earlier you posted: "We build worlds, we see them destroyed, we keep on going: that's the Great Work.", and i realized that i nodded along with everything before the colon, but that "That's the Great Work" most emphatically did not follow from that point.
it's not "The Great Work," because, frankly, there is no "Great Work" - it's just "The Way Things Are," which is very different.
to me, Kushner is simply putting too much emphasis on the greater importance and overall value of human life and human endeavor. it's not so much a case of "ah, who cares if a bunch of queers die? Why should that be important?" as much as it is a case of "who cares if anyone dies, ultimately?"
the entire history of the human species is a blip in the history of a fleck of dirt orbiting one of millions of suns in one of billions of galaxies operating on a timescale which is scarcely comprehensible. the one and only reason that shifts in the human population, plagues, wars, the rise and fall of civilizations, etc seem huge and important and Earth-shattering to us is precisely because we are so completely freaking unimportant. a fairly good guideline, to me, is that if it seems important to us, it probably isn't, since really important things happen on a scale we can't perceive, outside of the range of our normal comprehension.
as a result, the humanist quest for a concept of human dignity and importance in the greater scheme of Everything (which Angels in America seems to me to be a part of) strikes me as fundamentally narcisstic and immature. to me, it's a major stumbling block, an exercise in ego masturbation, and certainly not something worth validating at all. presenting anything like this as some kind of spiritual insight seems, to me, laughably naive.
basically, i kept feeling that Kushner really needed someone to smack him and say "hey: your world does not equal the world. take a step back, grow up, and get over yourself."
it's not a question of the particulars of the gay experience in New York in the 80s not serving well enough to illustrate the universals, i fundamentally and rather vehemently disagree with the supposed "universals."
obviously, it's easy for me to say that, not being a gay man in NYC in the 80s, looking for meaning in the ruins of the world i know. this leads me to my second point: because i'm more removed from the specific experience of AIDS in NYC in the 80s, even if i were to get into it through Kushner's eyes, and try to see the beauty and value in his experience even if i have fundamental issues with his belief system, it just doesn't resonate for me.
I can't help thinking that if all your friends were dying, and they represented a community and a form of solidarity that had only recently emerged, you might be narked if you said "Jesus, it feels like the end of the world" and I accused you of "epic narcissism"....AIDS in the 80s in New York is a fairly good microcosmic representation.
if this were 15 years ago i would agree. however, the nature of the AIDS epidemic has changed so drastically in that time period that i think the resonance is lost on me, seeing it now. i sort of addressed that in my earlier post. i can't un-think Africa in the 00s when I hear about AIDS, and so when i see AIDS being talked about exclusively in the context of New York in the 80s, i kind of raise an eyebrow. i can't help it, it's just my first response, and following from that response i can't help but compare the situations of someone having AIDS in a wealthy First World nation and that of someone having AIDS in a poverty-stricken Third World nation. i can't help but think "hey, man, i know you're dying in the hospital, but at least you have a hospital!" i'm already inclined to regard it as self-indulgent just for inflating human-scale issues to events of larger meaning and importance, but even within the scale of human experience, i can't help but think that he's got blinders on.
this is, of course, totally unfair and irrational. Kushner obviously can't help being from a certain time and place, and that's obviously going to shape his work. however, i am not in that time and place, and i can't pretend that my experience in my time and place doesn't shape my viewing. if i was buying his overall theological/philosophical/spirtual agenda, instead of finding it hopelessly self-important, i might be more receptive, but it just doesn't connect for me on any level. |