Barbelith Underground > Temple > How on earth do i get back up?

Now i feel like all of the information in my head is just there and i can't do anything with it.

I'd just chill the fuck out, if I were you. Go for a run, hit some stuff, get pissed. Don't panic. Give your sigils and whatever else you've been doing time to sink in, don't dwell on them or what they might be doing, think about something different, let the magic take care of itself. Try looking at other areas of your life that might be the root cause of the stress you're experiencing, chances are the magic has got bugger all to do with why you're feeling drained.

I think the sigils backfired.

Sounds more like low-grade paranoia to me, your sigil intents are so abstract that it seems unlikely they can go too far awry. I reckon the worst you can expect is maybe a bit of turbulence while the things you've asked for enter into your life, things might get thrown out of wack for a bit as 'strength', 'truth', etc... flood into your reality and try to find some equilibrium.

If it gets tricky, all you can do is roll with the punches and learn from the experience, secure in the knowledge that - by launching the sigils - you willed all of this to happen. You learn the most when you fuck things up and then have to fix them, not that I think that's what you've done in any sense. Although, if you're planning on seriously practicing magic you'll have to get used to dealing with FAR worse crisis situations than this. Take comfort in the fact that this'll seem like a fucking picnic in a couple of years from now. Being a magician is as much about taking responsibility for the results of your own magic, as it is about performing the magic in the first place.

I feel like i'm approaching Hod and the negative aspect of the sphere is kicking my fucking head back.

There can be a temptation, when you're first getting into magic, to frame everything that happens to you in magical or Quabalistic terms, which is sometimes counterproductive and more a product of the ego than anything else. It's very easy to convince yourself that all sorts of high flown cosmic shit is happening to you, when the reality is often a lot simpler and less glamourous.

Ow i feel like i'm on meltdown. My energies almost drained to nothing and i need some help

Again, just chill, do some martial arts or something. Or if you want a magical solution, try and develop a good grounding routine to earth yourself whenever you stir up more than you can deal with.