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Deconditioning?

 
 
trouser the trouserian
08:07 / 06.02.04
Gypsy Lantern wrote in another thread:

I hate all of that shit about 'transcending reality'. What does it mean exactly? Can you point to someone who's accomplished it? Has Christopher Hyatt transcended reality? Grant Morrison? Robert Anton Wilson? Did Crowley transcend reality? Eliphas Levi? Dr Dee? Tommy Cooper? Cagliostro? I think 'transcending reality' is a term that gets bandied about in chaos magic circles but it doesn't seem to actually mean anything concrete.
I actually think that the whole self-help branch of occultism, undoing yourself, de-conditioning yourself, reprogramming yourself, etc... can be really pernicious. It seems pretty common for people to get so distracted by doing these bloody little excercises that are meant to - in some vague and ephemeral way - free them from the oppressive tyranny of 'conditioning', that they end up missing out on loads of normal stuff that would be far more productive and healthy to try and engage with.


I think Gypsy has picked up on something worthy of discussion. The idea that magic is about self-transformation seems to me to be a dominant theme that runs through not only "chaos magic circles" but many other contemporary occult genres as well. So, deconditioning (etc.). What do we mean by it? Can we really 'reprogram' ourselves with a few 'simple exercises' and if so, to what extent? Does the concept of 'deconditioning' lead us to unrealistic expectations of ourselves and what we "should" be capable of? Can we do it on our own, or do we need help from others (friends/therapists)?
 
 
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08:27 / 06.02.04
I don't really think we're qualified to say yay or nay unless any of us have had major success in this area, i hope someone has and can advise us on this. I've tried some of this stuff and got nowhere, it seems so deep rooted in our minds some of this stuff and i've come to the conclusion that transcending reality is simply keeping in a state of mind that has the heightened awareness (awaKeness) and calmness of a deep meditative state.

You know when you meditate and it goes really well? You get onto your feet and feel at ease with yourself, but it never lasts long, you always get drawn back into reality. Well the people who have so called 'transcended' are probably the people who can hold onto this state and not get drawn back into the madness of the surrounding illusion emotionally or mentally.
 
 
illmatic
09:42 / 06.02.04
Cheers for starting the thread AoG, I was going to say something in reaction to Gypsy's post re. "trancending reality" possibly a subject for another thread, but I may as well say it here.

Basically, I've read quite a few first person accounts of "mystical" experience (some of which I can lend you if you like, GL). I think there is something in the whole metaphor, though I agree with you insofar as it's a term that gets bandied about without careful consideration of what it might mean - I don't like the idea of transcending reality myself, surely it's all real - but it's a real phenomena and possibly one worth aspiring toward, if we look at it's effects on the lives of those who've experieneced it.
I suspect possibly that the way occult literature works though, is to highlight this sort of gnosis as somehow superior to everyday insights into one's our day to day lives and behaviour.

One of the best accounts I've read is Agehananda Bharati's "Light at the Centre".Bharati (real name Leopold Fisher) was an Austraian solider who somehow ended up a Hindu swami. He had a lifelong interest in Eastern religon, beginning at the age of 10. In "Light at the Centre" he refers to the mystical experience as the "zero experience" and makes numerous interesting points, one of which is that if you go into the experience an arsehole, you'll come out of it an arsehole. (he says it more eloquently than that though).This implies to me there's no instant cure for our neurosis, hang ups etc etc. Can't help but think of Crowley, Mathers and a load of other sages, Estern and Western, who despite some kind of "experiences" - I defintely think Crowely did "transcend" sometimes - end up behaving like the worst sort of power mad bullies, a situation probably brought about in part by a load of facile disciples hanging on their every word, and treating them as God Almightly rather than just another human being.

The second point I got out of Bharati's book was in relation to his own experiences. He reports just four instances of it, after a lifetime of devotion. This behooves me to ask if an experience is going to happen so infrequently in an indviduals lifetiem, what do we do wih the rest of our lives? Should we all just be aspiring to this One Big Thing or can we draw other lessons in how to live, how to generate meaning and purpose from mysticism/magical practice? I think the latter, possibly a subject for another thread.

More later on the deconditioning thing when I've thought about it a bi more. Tommy Cooper is obviously f**ing way out there.
 
 
Boy in a Suitcase
10:32 / 06.02.04
My take on it was always... Yeah, how much are you willing to bet?
 
 
trouser the trouserian
10:32 / 06.02.04
Illmatic
...if you go into the experience an arsehole, you'll come out of it an arsehole.

That comment reminds me of a friend of mine who went through Werner Erhart's "the Forum" training in the late '80's. Now "the Forum" was an intensive course based on the idea of "taking control of one's life" which involved familiar techniques such as "talking to one's inner child" and "visualising one's worst fear" but done within the context of a large group of people in daily sessions sometimes lasting 14 hours or so. Forum-ites liked to talk about having "Breakthroughs" which changed the way they thought about themselves and how they behaved. On the last session of the course, Forum trainers got 'students' to bring in interested friends so they could see first-hand the 'value' of doing the course (a standard gambit if someone seemed interested, but was wavering about the costs, would be for a Forumite to say "Even though you're a complete stranger, I'm so CONVINCED that you'll benefit from doing the Forum that I'll lend you the registration fee"). Anyhow, this friend of mine was at the last session where attendees were coming up onto the stage and enthusing about their "Breakthroughs" in front of all the trainers and public. He told me that this guy got up and started the usual preamble about how the Forum had changed his life. To illustrate this, he talked about how (during a break in the course) he'd gone into work, got into an argument with his secretary, and proceeded to first verbally then physically abuse her - and how "liberated" he felt after doing this. Apparently the 'trainers' couldn't get him off the stage quick enough.
 
 
Gypsy Lantern
13:26 / 06.02.04
I don't really think we're qualified to say yay or nay unless any of us have had major success in this area, i hope someone has and can advise us on this. I've tried some of this stuff and got nowhere

That’s what I mean though. I’ve moved in occult circles for a fair few years and met a lot of people, but I haven’t met a single person who has followed one of these curriculums start to finish and come out the other end as some kind of empowered ubermensch type character, free from neuroses and effective at every level. I don’t think this actually happens. I think you can convince yourself that this stuff is working and draw a degree of empowerment from that self-hypnosis, but really that’s not much different than investing in a religious faith. Swap the rosary beads for ‘deconditioning exercises’ and the internal processes might be pretty similar. I’d have to respectfully disagree with your comment that we’re not equipped to comment on the efficacy of these techniques unless we’ve achieved success with them. Isn’t that a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy? You can’t take a critical look at something unless you’ve had success with it? How does that work?


Reading back over my post from last night, I think that two things are getting conflated here, probably because I was half asleep when I posted. There’s the issues around ‘de-conditioning exercises’, and the issues around the desire to ‘transcend reality’. These are two different things, but there is some overlap between them, often ‘transcending reality’ is the grail offered at the end of these courses of self-modification.

Basically, I've read quite a few first person accounts of "mystical" experience

I’m not suggesting that there’s no such phenomena as ‘mystical experience’ or that such things aren’t of value, but I’m not sure that this type of experience is directly synonymous with ‘transcending reality’ in the way that it’s often aspired to.

I suspect possibly that the way occult literature works though, is to highlight this sort of gnosis as somehow superior to everyday insights into one's our day to day lives and behaviour.

I think that’s one of the things I’m most uncomfortable with. It came up in that thread the other day as well, a dichotomy between everyday reality and magical experience. The term ‘transcending reality’ assumes that our everyday experiences of reality are in some way wrong or problematic, and should be overcome by an effort of will. Which I think is a bit of a dodgy proposition to base your approach to magic on. It leads very easily to a mindset that considers anyone not engaging in this sort of practice to be somehow ‘lesser’ or ‘mundane’ – like the people in the Matrix who don’t realize that their day-to-day experiences are a simulation. Which, I would hazard a guess, might in fact be a load of self-delusional bollocks.

He reports just four instances of it, after a lifetime of devotion. This behooves me to ask if an experience is going to happen so infrequently in an individual’s lifetime, what do we do with the rest of our lives?

The notion of ‘transcending reality’ implies in its wording that this transformation is to some extent permanent or lasting, rather than the passing moments of cosmic insight that you seem to be referring to. These moments of psychic clarity are often associated with the Eastern meditative disciplines but I think they can crop up in any branch of magical practice, or just suddenly happen out of the blue regardless of whether you’re a magician or not. I’ve had several ‘occult incidents’ where my notions of what constitutes ‘reality’ have been turned on their head, and I’ve walked away from these experiences irrevocably different – but I certainly haven’t ‘transcended reality’. I don’t even know what that means. I think this sort of area is a lot more messy, abstract, and just plain mysterious than a lot of the step-by-step guides tend to suggest.
 
 
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13:37 / 06.02.04
I’d have to respectfully disagree with your comment that we’re not equipped to comment on the efficacy of these techniques unless we’ve achieved success with them. Isn’t that a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy? You can’t take a critical look at something unless you’ve had success with it? How does that work?

Yeah sorry about that. I wondered why the hell i typed it when i read the post back to myself. WTF is wrong with me when i type stuff like that? Am i possesed? Maybe one of Ickes reptoids is playing around with me.

Out demon of hell! ye get gone!
 
 
cusm
16:46 / 06.02.04
On this sort of thing, I can only speak from my own experience. The nutshell of that being, I had some intense mystical experiences which changed my perspective on how I wanted to live and interact with reality. The rest has been years of struggling with my stubburn self to live up to them, with occasional moments of success. The experiences themselves only gave me perspective, they didn't change me inherently. I had to do that the hard way on my own later, and do it because I wanted to. I suppose I just wanted to because of the experiences. Other than that part, there's nothing simple about it. Reprogramming is hard, and sometimes it takes the mallet of mystical space to clear your head enough to make the decisions you want to make and mean them. But really, its the devoted will and effort that do the trick, over time.
 
 
FinderWolf
18:58 / 06.02.04
My stance is that yes, you can reprogram yourself and get very different results from life & the universe than you were previously getting, through magick, hypnosis, NLP, reconditioning, whatever tools you use --- but it takes time. So yes, while I can say I do have experience with seeing serious growth, maturity, improvement in my luck and fortune, people skills, confidence, etc., over the past 5 years, it doesn't happen overnight. There are very few people, it seems, who experience very dramatic and rapid transformation due to mystical experiences - though I do believe it can happen, albeit rarely.

But, as someone said here, once you have the epiphany, what do you do with your life after it, and do you keep trying to improve yourself, and do you always remember the lessons of the epiphany? Those things would seem to be just as important as the epiphany itself.

Put your energies into the cogs of the universe and the workings of the machine will start to churn a little differently. But it takes time for your blood, sweat, tears and magickal grease to work through the whole machine, and you might see gradual results build like a snowball through the years once you've done so. That's an image that just came to mind to desribe this.
 
 
ghadis
21:40 / 08.02.04
The way i see it at the moment is that it's not about 'Trancending' Reality but more to do with embracing and perceiving Reality in a more encompassing way. It's about being able to see whats at the peripheral, what it normally hidden from us.

A few years ago i had what could in some ways could be described as a 'mystical trancending experience'. For around 2 or 3 weeks i really lost it and locked myself up in the house. I was having really scary halluncinations about scale. The size of things really freaked me out. I lost the ability to walk down the stairs at times because i felt i wouldn't fit. I'd walk through a door and the door would just seem too proportionatly small in context to myself to work. I'd close my eyes and suddenly find myself tottering on the brink of something so massive it would bring me to tears. Along with this was audible hallucinations which produced such pain in my (for some reason right) ear that left me screaming in pain. Sorry for getting a bit dramatic but that was how it was. All this wasn't really brought on by magick as such as i was only getting into it, a few sigils and such. It was more brought on by lots of stress from different places combined with too many late nights and too many drugs. This lasted for 2 weeks or so before i got myself to the doctors and was prescribed some tablets which, along with some others aspects, sorted me out.

Luckily i didn't didn't equate this hard period of my life with my starting to get involved with magic (the other drug and stress related causes were very obvious) and as such took it an impetus to really get more involved with it. Now when i look back on those few weeks i see it as a kind of initiationary period. Yes i was in trouble and proberly deemed as mentally ill' for a short while but what i feel happened was that i was having an uncontrolled, glimpse of a part of reality that i wasn't conditioned to see and this loosened my ideas and preconceived notions of what 'reality'is. Later i read accounts of people, becoming the smallest point in the universe or expanding to encompass the world through meditaion and other practices.

While i've not had such an intense experience as that since then i have had lots of similer things that i class as enhancing my reality and have met many people who's experiences 'trancend' their normal reality (which is of course a lot of us on Barbelith).
As has been said above, the questionable aspect of this is the idea of 'enlightenment' as some sort of end or closure. There seems a natural human instinct to desire this and it shows itself in ideas such as heaven or samadhi etc. Maybe this is a natural urge against change. But the way i see it is that 'magick', or whatever the term we choose, is an ongoing fight against this urge. An ongoing movement

On to 'De-Conditioning'. I like de-conditioning. I see a main part of my magical practice as being de-conditioning. If i'm looking to expand and enhance my reality i have to de-condition myself first. The very first spell or sigil that i did that worked and made me think, 'Wow! Theres really somthing in this!' was an incredibly powerful act of de-condtioning. It made me think in an entirirely different way about reality and my relationship to it.

whooops gotta go...maybe more later....great thread by the way
 
 
ghadis
23:49 / 08.02.04
I also see de-conditioning as an act to promote change in other aspects of ourselves which are not seemingly directly connected to the original habit or condition. The way it feels like to me is that if you spend enough amount time and concertrated effort on one aspect of your personalitly/ego/conditioned responses or maybe more importantly on the OPPOSITE of that personalitly/ego/conditioned response this seems to open up a few flood gates and trigger off a few unexpected results. Maybe this is just a shock tactic which jolts ourselves out of our 'reality'.
 
 
Perfect Tommy
01:41 / 09.02.04
My take is simply that such reprogramming is an ongoing process, for everyone. If the enlightened bastards have anything on everyone else, it's merely that they've gotten somewhat familiar with what having your beliefs knocked around like billiard balls feels like: the surge of believing you know exactly what's going on, which feeling fades but leaving you still convinced, giving way to doubts, and to the experience of finding psychic barbs from your oldlife for months afterward, until you remember that this happens every damn time and note how many positive and lasting changes you did manage to enact. And the process continues with the more entrenched problems... repeat until dead.
 
 
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03:47 / 09.02.04
Although that's probably the case for people like us i still think that there's got to be a point where it all ends and you really do 'transcend' the full lot, the real deal.

There fucking must be an end point reachable before death.

I'm sure that deep inside we all know this aswell. Either that or i'm full of fucking shit.

But something tells me i'm right.
 
 
C.Elseware
10:58 / 09.02.04
I gotta say that you can reprogram yourself. And, acting you should. But responsibly.

I take responsibility for who I am. Part of that has been dealing with ingrained bits of who I am/was that I didn't like. The id will bow the ego.

I have found that rapid change does not 'stick', in my experience, and watching those around me, they usually revert to type. Your personality has inertia and to change its direction requires continous steady presure over a period of months not one big whammy.

A metaphor for what I practice would be emotional-intellectual martial arts. Martial arts are about training your body to react in an optimised way under certain circumstances. They allow you to deal with things which you don't have time to study the implications of, and deal with them in a predetermined way. I see much of my practice to be doing the same thing to my emotional and intellectual reactions to circumstances. Obvious stuff like seeing instantly WHY someone is treating me in a certain way, rather than getting hurt or insulted etc.

I'm not an expert. But I do appear to be happy and successful, so that's my argument for it being helpful.

My practice hack is replace automatic phrases with ones of my choice so I use them without being aware. For example the phrase you blurt when hurt, surprised, answering the phone, saying hi to a friend, after burping.

I think that who I am is too important to leave to chance.
 
 
Agent_770
17:24 / 09.02.04
This is an entertaining track of thought, that I constantly revisit. I believe that Jodorowsky's "Holy Mountain", may be of great insight to those of you pondering these points. The goal of these texts, and authors in most cases seem to be a track or line of thought, or a system of tactics and skills that might guide those seeking to rend the veil, to do so. In some of these cases, I believe they have done what they can to assist. I think what we find in lifetime adherents to a mystical viewpoint(seeking transcendence of thought or spirit vs. the magickal path of continual self-empowerment in the here and now) when they a proclaim handful of threshold experiences in this arena, is simply a plateau effect.

So many of these "lessons" to be learned can only be triggered or activated within certain realms of life-experience. Without the foreknowledge or symbolic vocabulary, possible enlightenment trance will continue slide right past perception without engaging in this extreme gnosis. Do you really want to exist in a state of constant intense impressionability? I concede that it might make my life far more difficult, if while I'm on my way to take care of most of my daily tasks, this is going on. I don't think I get much accomplished. However, this is a state of being that many of the zen mysticks allude to. While carrying water and chopping wood, they strive to be entirely aware of how connected to the whole at every moment of existence.... A constant state of transcendental awareness...

When one undergoes, continual chemognosis, the overwhelming effects of new stimuli on the brain and nervous system and it's myriad crystalline branches of memory, can in fact be adapted to as a commonplace understanding. It's what one does with this state of awareness, that becomes the real issue.

In "Holy Mountain", the theme of destination versus the journey travelled is explored. These exercises, skills, and insights, are not the end in itself, but once down the road following the directional arrows for so long, we find ourselves more empowered to head in any & every direction and find the center of the universe within. Able to draw on those powers and currents that lie within and without.
 
 
cusm
22:43 / 09.02.04
There fucking must be an end point reachable before death.

See, I always figured the point is to constantly strive towards that point but never actually reach it, cause the only real end point is death itself. Life is the period of change where you keep working on getting better and better until you have to stop. The point of the game is to play, not to win.
 
 
LVX23
23:08 / 09.02.04
Briefly (just jotting down a few notes before I flee work...I'll try to catch up on the thread later)...

For the last 6 months or so I've been really into the notion of metaprogramming, as opposed to deconditioning. Basically using magickal paradigms as software for the brain. In this respect I think any basic routine ala Hyatt or others will, if applied regularly, generate results. Yoga is essentially the same concept, or a doctoral dissertation for that matter. Anything that you devote yourself to will cause changes in your person.

The only people capable of living in a semi-continuous state of enlightenment are those folks sequestered away in caves or monasteries. The saddhu or enlightened Hindu masters are taken care of, even deified, so that they may continue to apprehend the Absolute and astonish us mere mortals with their insights. The shaman is a center of the tribe and taken care of as a valuable resource. For the rest of us mere mortals (and this includes Crowley and the rest of the usual suspects of western esoterica) we must constantly balance our wild explorations into the Inner Realms against paying bills and dealing with normals day-in and day-out. This is why many "advanced mystics" who still live in society often get really warped out and live what seems to be very paradoxical lives.

I believe that in western society it is impossible to consistently stay in a magickal state without ending up in an asylum. For us, magick is essentially a form of controlled schizophrenia from which we try to pluck the valuable gems of insight and apply them to our daily lives to find greater meaning and balance.

My 2 bits for now.
 
 
Alex's Grandma
00:13 / 10.02.04
" There fucking must be an end point reachable before death... "

Well but why ? Who says ? And even if there was, if you die and that's it, is what you seem to be saying, then what'd be the point of all these flaming, enlightened, mystical experiences, if you're just going to end up cold in the ground ? I mean you'd have your good times, and they'd be pretty interesting, but would they be actually all that different, more worthwhile, whatever, in a qualitative sense, than say, being blown by a hooker in your BMW, while doing a gramme up your nose with your platinum Am-X card ? Would they mean any more ? Bearing in mind that in the absence of any kind of higher power, specifically an after-life, morality's vanity, is just what I think.
 
 
Alex's Grandma
00:25 / 10.02.04
Christ, that reads so aggressive... I guess I do need some sleep...
 
 
trouser the trouserian
07:00 / 10.02.04
Something that I came across when studying social psychology has stood me in good stead over the years - the idea that we tend to 'explain' our own behaviour in regard to a situation in terms of complexities (I wasn't feeling well, 'x' reminds me of someone I had a bad experience with, and so forth) and tend to attribute other peoples' behaviour to their personalities. So, bearing this in mind, if I'm having difficulty with an individual, I try and resist the temptation to view their behaviour as fixed - i.e. "I can't work with x 'cos he's an arsehole" and afford them the same latitude that I'd give myself.
 
 
Rain
08:52 / 10.02.04
Maybe what we're really talking about here is rewiring the brain/ nervous system into new and meaningful (or not, maybe) configurations. Anyone remember RAW's theory of fifth- & sixth- circuit mind from the Schroedinger's Cat Trilogy?
PS. Eon, you the maaaaaan...
 
 
C.Elseware
09:11 / 10.02.04
Sounds about right. I used to pride myself on being really "aware" of my motivations. Currently I'm more inclined just to get on with life and find out how I feel and what I do.

I explain myself less than I used to. Possibly I'm just bored of rationalising my addictions. Oops. That was an analysis of my motivations, I wonder why I did that...? arrgh. My zen appears to have fled
 
 
trouser the trouserian
09:55 / 10.02.04
Rain
Maybe what we're really talking about here is rewiring the brain/ nervous system into new and meaningful (or not, maybe) configurations.

Perhaps, but I don't tend to think of it in those terms, at least not on a practical, experiental level, as so much of our 'conditioning' relates to our interactions with others, self-identifications, personal history, etc. I tend to keep it at the level of observable dynamics: how I feel; how I act; how I view myself/others.
 
 
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15:26 / 10.02.04
PS. Eon, you the maaaaaan...

Piss off! That sounds like hard work, YOU be the fucking man!

 
  
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