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I havd been thinking of starting a thread on this, but found this one, nice. Well i have been in group therapy for a little over a year now and have been through an emotional rollercoaster of various estates of habitation.
I find myself at the moment experiencing Rage, blinding silent rage, its something i have been putting into my daily devotionals especially upon the part of visualisation, the images i visualise as i invoke aspects of an entity are being filled with this force of emotion.
Since they largely act as protecters and warrior type figures i think this may actually be helpful, but also it gives a safe expression of that anger.
I am wondering how other people release emotion during ritual and what emotions they encounter, how ritual effects the processing of emotions, i see it almost as related to play, theatre and drama, i am keeping obvious ritualistic weapons out of my practice, so the anger learns to manifest as gesture, facial expression, tonality of voice and especially as visualisation, eyes open, the notion of creating thought forms comes to mind.
This rage is being processed within the the area of my stomach and genitalia, it literally comes up from the depths or underworld in my own system of relations, yet the anger is also saturated with pain, some of the ritual has conributed to overwhelming sorrow and weeping and a sense of loss.
The anger and depression tie into each other, the sorrow is anger if that at all makes sense to anybody.
Now without the therapy i am in i dont think my rituals would be quite so charged with emotion, The figure of Anpu, Anubis was chosen first because of appearence, but as time wore on and more research was done and especially jackal/wolf (egyptian) associations with renewal became prevalent, the digestion of decaying structure, a kind of hope at rebirth is involved in the ritualistic activity combined with the ongoing therapy.
In the sense that magic and therapy are seen to give birth to new awareness and cosmology i am thinking that the two make perfect partners for transformation, I wouldnt mind hearing how other people have approached this and what changes it made to them. |
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