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I was just going to start this thread. We watched Wendigo last night -- not recommended, by the way, but I thought of your working.
When I was first coming through dealing w/ magick, I became lovers with someone who was very close to a group of 'kin in Boston, who started an email list called darkfae where a lot of the early 'kin stuff was developed. I also lived with one of those people later on, who had worked on starting a 'kin commune in Texas. (Texas?!)
My impressions of the 'kin community are so mixed up. I'm coming out of a magical tradition that I got involved with because I had a pull towards the Fae, but I didn't know how to make sense of it. Back when I was first dealing with my 'awakening' (I hate the implications of that word, as if everyone else is asleep?), it was very tempting to think that I was something more than human, because how else could I explain these things that were happening to me?
What I got out of my Feri (another way to spell Faery, but how my trad spells it) training is that there is nothing shameful in being human, and that it is our humanity that enables us to be magicians, witches, tantrikas, etc. Our humanity gives us the body and tools to work magic. Our magic may come from a font of energy and inspiration that is transhuman (whether that be Fey, divine, all of the above, and is there a difference?) but that to work that energy does not require us to be abandon our humanity.
We talk about faerie blood, but I don't know how to parse that with 'kin community, and I never have. I look at that more on the level or tribe, and who you feel you are family with, and who you feel allegiance to. Again, one of those things that's passed down in myths and folklore because there is that grain of truth to it, even if the form it takes in our pomo-world seems anachronistic.
On werewolves more specifically, I always thought that was one of those similar things -- a way human stories had made sense of the shape-shifting of shamans. I can't get past some of the Lost Little Girl/Boy vibe I get off the 'kin communities, that feels so much like the hurt I felt coming out as queer, or as my friends who came out as trans deal with. "This is who I am, how I've always been, it's not in my head, and even though you've beent old to fear me and that I can't exist, I DO." I can relate to that, even if I don't feel the way they do about my genes.
I hesitate to equate magic and non-humaness. I think one of the reasons magic seems so remote and insane to most people is that it is something we have been led to believe, by institutionalized religion and science, that humans can't be capable of. I'm much more interested in embracing the world of here and now, and not imagining what lost Faerie land I fell from to have to live with the "lesser beings" here. Sounds so -- Christian, I don't know. Not my bag of Cracker Jacks.
(I do know Faeries like candy, though. So maybe I am a Faerie.)
I wish I could answer this with a more serious, magico-anthropolical tone, but these things are the frontier for me, where sense and nonsense start to dissolve. I'm sure there's lot sof nutso stuff I do that the 'kin would consider to be signs of my 'kin-ness. I also know that to live in a flesh-driven human-centric planet, if I give up my humanity, real of imagined as it may be, I put myself at a serious disadvantage, and I risk misanthropy. People can change, people can do better. I don't want to give up on "them." |
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