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i was recently involved in a bit of a back and forth with nick regarding some of my views on the current shenanigans and the State of the Board.
i am hesitant to comment on these things, as i have been burned in the past, but i am emboldened by the current atmosphere of uncertainty.
firstly,
quoting from a PM to nick;
i am a member of the 'nation' that is barbelith. as a community with no appointed leaders, we naturally have evolved some anyway.
those leaders were who the war was being waged with.
as with all wars, the generals are hard to attack, and so the people and devices they own become targets.
so, yeah, i guess i am at war with anyone who 'bombs' my 'country', but i dont feel i have any actual involvement in the conflict. i am not on the frontline because i have yet to see any reason to join either side.
i dont think you are all making it up, but i do like to have things proved beyond a reasonable doubt before i engage an enemy or take a side. there is an assumption (occasionally it seems at least) that i should know why Mod is a dick, and that i should be as incensed as all of those of you who DO have information that leads to that conclusion.
this, i think is the crux of what pisses a lot of us less informed citizens off.
i realise i can research the problem, but only so far. remember that some of these posts and threads are now in the bin, and as such unavailable for study.
and then, nick inquired about my comments:
“the barbelith elite, royalty, usual suspects, or whatever you like were the only ones in this fight. many of them/you, as is their/your wont, assumed that they/you speak for and represent all of us.”
the assumption that there is a barbelith mindset, a standard or best fit mentality, that's what annoys me. only a little, but still. i dont want the place shut down, but THAT similarity between us may be the only one. the danger is when you assume that i am similar to you in ways not yet discussed.
i feel a little like i am being told i am 'with the terrorists' by some folks when i stand up to be counted, you know?
on the subject of the clicks;
NICK:
But it's sad to think that you can spend almost a year here and post nearly a thousand times, and still think of yourself as on the outside in some way.
so do i. so do i.
i am not sure why i feel this way, but perhaps people like haus telling me that i am worthless to the board in one of his fits of bilious spite is a part of it. (yes, i shopuld be less insecure. sorry.)
perhaps it is because i feel cowed after having arrived here with my ignorance of the board on my sleeve. i am relatively new to the internet, and this place is a part of a learning experience. it's only the second board i have ever been resident on, and i approached it like it was the first one. in the headshop.
you can imagine, i am sure, the kind of language that i met (i dont mean swearing) and perhaps imagine how that felt. hell, maybe you were there, maybe you remember.
i was being more stupid than i would now, but i still to this day am unwilling to invest any time and emotion in a lengthy discourse when i feel it will be ripped to shreds. i feel this would happen whether or not i was being an idiot, and i do not enjoy such aggression.
(yes, i have a bad history, and i understand you will have to imagine i can be erudite and eloquent)
and to finish, i would like to tell you what i do believe.
i think this place is fucking brilliant, and despite in no way smart enough to come up with foolproof way to protect it from the evils of people who want it brought crashing down, i am grateful for the efforts of those who are.
i think tom is one of the greatest people i have never met, and an actual hero of mine. to have created such an interesting place would be enough in itself, but his pleasance and consitent nature is almost godlike.
i think the fiction suit experiment was always a stupid idea in the context of the security of a site like this. if you want to keep out assholes, you have to realise that you cant leave the keys under the mat.
i think there should be more explaining done when things like this happen, to stop us all from wondering what the BigMen behind the HeavyDoors are up to. that would definitely stop anyone from feeling like there was an inner circle of any kind.(well, it would stop me for sure, anyway)
perhaps PMing everyone with a rundown, if thats at all practical, perhaps a locked thread with the problem outlined as clearly as possible.
right.
that was my 12 cents, now let me know why i am wrong and deserve a death in pain that sends my soul straight to hell.
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