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A tide of power, September 15th, 2003

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03:23 / 19.09.03

Well speaking of shattered illusions, I had one shattered last night. A dream of love. Its a good thing though, even if it hurts. Highlights the work I still need to do. It had been building up for a while and now there is release. Maybe not the kind of release I wanted but possibly what I needed. The fool continues his giant step into the unknown.

08:45 / 19.09.03

Hey Sypha, hope you turn a corner and pick up soon.. all the best.

10:14 / 19.09.03

Whoa, sympathy for the Fool- one small step for a fool, one giant leap for foolkind

I read a great quote by Rachael Pollack the other day, 'The Fool leaps boldly into the rich tapestry of the world, alive to it's infinite possibilities'. Good luck!

May tricks, what do the positions indicate? The four to me indicates introspection or self-centredness as much as stable power, if it's 'Why?' then maybe it relates to preoccupation. The pulse might be a wake up call in time for the Autumn equinox.

Nietzsch E. Coyote

10:35 / 19.09.03

I will try to shift my position on the wave to reinforce positive harmonics with your aura Sypha Nadon.

And try to remember Right this moment SOMEONE who doesn't have to LOVES you.

And That Someone is Everyone
That moment is ALL NOW

15:22 / 19.09.03

Yes, the positions....

First card, I asked for the source - where the current wave/tide began. The second is the present implications of this wave, and the final card is the outcome. The "why" card is simply my curiousity as I am cursed with believing there really is a (good?) reason for everything.

I wasn't very happy with the reading. I found it too trite and shallow. Maybe I am not interpreting it properly right now. That was the first time I have used my cards in months. When I first took them out all they wanted to do was talk about me, with all the "hi, how are ya?'s" and "how's things?". I had to get really focused with them. I think they are feeling a little neglected and are being aloof.

*sigh*

You just can't please everyone.

(Sending you some warm and fuzzy Sypha

)

Nietzsch E. Coyote

16:13 / 19.09.03

Thank you very very much, May.

So it's Source, Present, Conclusion, Why?
That fits PERFECTLY with my own work, you wouldn't believe it.

Since this flow started I have been on a totally integrative trip. I have become a sort of spiritual borg but instead of making you another me, I expand me to also include this part of you as me.

May I have your permission to integrate this {spread, structure} as part of {my system, me}?

IF I do receive your permission, I will set straight to interpreting this reading of yours with the readings I unfolded.

16:25 / 19.09.03

By all means, Nietzsch E....please do so.

Nietzsch E. Coyote

16:38 / 19.09.03

Thank you very very much, May.

Nietzsch E. Coyote

19:11 / 19.09.03

Preliminary analysis of May Tricks' tarot reading

1. earth one, Unmanifest material plane, the future of conventional time. "Are these words from the future?"

2. fire ten, "Without the will to break free of the bars of physical limitations and false perceptions, the Questing spirit withers in its own Entropic prison."

3. fire nine, "Though the trees of life and knowledge stand burnt and defiled, though the wilderness of the world be impaled upon the spear of progress, the powers of the eagle’s keen perceptions endows him with unceasing courage."

4. earth four, "From his perch at the center of his universe, … his mind perceives the subtle forms within the Grand Pattern of perceivable reality."

More on this when I start to zoom in on the depth

19:52 / 19.09.03

Okay, there were some nutty meteorological phenomena today. Apocaliptically dead-black clouded by morning, rain, ice drops, and wind, and now woosh!, its fucking Disneyland springtime except for I don't see Bambi around, with the sun shining and setting in about two hours on a light blue sky above the city. All this followed by the correspodingly collective changes of mood. Its a shiny Friday afternoon, of course, and it looks like everybody's going to start shagging in the park. No, its not just me.

As for my exacerbated deja-vú, I have tested that if I observe a person for a short while, 2 or 3 minutes, I immediately get the irrevocable feeling we know each other from somewhere.

The Tower Always Falls

18:13 / 20.09.03

Interesting... I've been pretty absent from these boards (halfway self-imposed) for months until this thread, so that's something...

The 15th wasn't as obviously crazy for me so much as the weekend previous. That happened to be a rather large party my sig. other and I had to celebrate our belated birthdays- as we were in England at the time. The party itself was a madhouse of people we never expected to see again. I was a bit tipsiy at the time, but I kept getting the impression of a set of shifting faces all asking me if they could read my just finished, as of-yet unpublished novel...

But as for the actual time frame involed... Carnivale premiered on HBO at just about exactly the time this "tide" started (the 14th around 9 Central time...) And throughout the entire work day of Monday the 15th, I was drowning in butterflies. Seriously, I couldn't drive down the street without seeing at least one to five Monarch butterflies flapping their way across major intersections. That's rather unusual for Chicago... And this tidal wave of butterflies kept up for most of the week, where every intersection had at least three butterflies crossing, ... That plus my dreams lately have been ridiculously epic lately. Giant robots fighting above cityscapes with four bikers of the Apocalypse weilding tridents as they attack it. Other epic journey stuff...

And a rash on my hand that started right after I read the last issue of the Filth...

Nietzsch E. Coyote

04:38 / 22.09.03

Well it turns out that my best friend gave birth during that twenty four hour period and a very old friend of mine died. Death and Birth.

11:31 / 22.09.03

Okay, I though this thread was utter bullshit at first. Laughed it off and didn't bother to keep up.

I know better now.

Looking back over my week, it was conflict conflict conflict. No project I was working stayed anywhere near schedule and no one I worked with seemed capable of working as a team member (with a few blissful exceptions). I barely got thru it with my sanity intact. Further, this led to exhaustion, too much beer and smoking, and my first major stumble in my 40-day working (more details to follow if this works). But it got better! Over the weekend, I feel I was rewarded with gifts that I have been searching for: Maya Deren's "Divine Horsemen" (found it completely at random in the local library) and Holst's "The Planets" (classical opera with Kaballistic time signatures. Every movement is named after a different planet). The Deren book has been on my search list ever since I first heard of it through DOOM PATROL. I've been looking a long time.

Hmmm...a trial that test every resource followed by long-sought reward...that's a good description of my 40-day working.

EE

18:06 / 24.09.03

I don't know if what happened on the 15th was that chaotic, or even that outright magickal, but it made me sick for days. And I had fucked up dreams about people I've never met, discussing something that I can't remember (there was a lot of white and gray in the dream, in case anyone cares). At the time, it felt like my spirit allies were off at a meeing or something (maybe that was them in the dream), and weren't around to completely protect me from some sick mojo. I had just chalked it up to my allies being away for a moment, or even something as simple as the fact that Fall has it's foot in the door already (although, I don't think I usually get sick around the changing of the seasons).

Huh! I knew I should've come to this place when it all started. I had a feeling something was up. Now I look like a johnny-come-lately.

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