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Something weird happened to me when I woke up last night

 
 
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14:57 / 03.09.03
Usually when I go to bed I sleep straight through till the morning, but occ. I wake up around 5 or so. Anyway, last night was one of those nights. I was dreaming as usual, nothing fancy, when suddenly in the dream a bee started to fly around me.

A word of explanation here: I'm scared of bees. Whenever one appears in my dreams it acts as a trigger that usually wakes me up. That is, whenever a bee appears I know I'm dreaming and I force myself awake.

But this time, upon awaking, I was bombarded with a bizarre rapid fire montage of images that seemed to be in front of my eyes when I opened and closed them (I kept them closed because I wanted to see where it was going). This montage consisted of what looked like white sheets of paper: On these sheets of paper were scientific illustrations of various species, starting with insects and then proceeding on to reptiles, mammals, humans, and then a shitload of bizarre species I've never even seen before (a few of which seemed almost Lovecraftian in design). This montage of scientific illustrations went on for about a minute before a new image appeared: It was basically a merry-go-round pinwheel thing spinning before my eyes, and on this spinning object there were designs that seemed both Native American and African (Dogon) in design: THese images for the most part looked like animals but there were some tribal drawings that looked like they could either be spirits or gods. All the while I knew I was awake and I was paying close attention to all this: THe colors were so vivid they hurt and I was intensly hyper-aware of what was happening.

I visualized my hands reaching out to touch the spinning wheel, and I saw my hands reach out and touch it, but they looked like they were transparent. Suddenly the spinning pinwheel shattered and I visualized myself falling towards a floor that was covered in nauseating kaliedescope-like designs, and I fell through this floor, which shattered. I gradually realized I was in control of what happened so I made myself zoom upward, until I found myself surrounded by a landscape of endless geometric patterns and shifting designs, again looking like a giant psychedelic kalidescope. By this point I was feeling ill so I forced myself out of it, forced my eyes open and rubbed them as hard as I could until the images faded away and I could see my bedroom clearly.

I eventually fell back asleep but it was tough as I had a dull headache after all this transpired. I know I probably wasn't really awake... Maybe it was lucid dreaming? But it did seem intensly real. Unless it was a hallucination, but I've never had one of those so I doubt it... Weird.
 
 
Quantum
15:03 / 03.09.03
On the threshold between waking and sleep you can have experiences very like lucid dreams, but they're rarely that vivid- whoa. See if you can do it again and keep it up, to see how far you can take it and where it takes you. Then tell us!
 
 
Papess
18:32 / 03.09.03
2 words.

Akashic. Files.
 
 
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20:15 / 03.09.03
Actually, I'm quite glad this happened: Its one of the first really weird things I've seen ever since I started getting into magic about a year and a half ago. I don't even mind the fact it was a dream: My dreams are usually quite boring as a rule of thumb.
 
 
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20:15 / 03.09.03
Actually, I'm quite glad this happened: Its one of the first really weird things I've seen ever since I started getting into magic about a year and a half ago. I don't even mind the fact it was a dream: My dreams are usually quite boring as a rule of thumb.
 
 
Shanghai Quasar
20:42 / 03.09.03
As a general rule I just see big transparent spiders weaving their little webs. Can't say I've ever had that sort of vivid vision upon awakening. Here's hoping you draw some meaning from it all, Sypha.
 
 
Spyder Todd 2008
00:21 / 04.09.03
You get that to, Shanghai? (Course, I think I get that for a different reason...)

Sypha, mi amigo, this sounds really cool. I've done a few experiments with shit like this, but what you've done (intentional or not) is really cool. That's all I got so far.
 
 
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02:46 / 04.09.03
I'm pretty sure it was unintentional. I haven't really read any Lovecraft these days so I doubt that was on my mind... I did read "Cosmic Trigger" recently though (great book) so maybe that had something to do with it (coincidentally my pet cat died a year ago today so maybe that had something to do with it too).

I'm not sure if there was any meaning... Truth be told, the whole time it was happening the writer in my head was memorizing everything so I could maybe use it in a story one day... When it was over my first thought was "Fuck! I gotta mention this in the Barbelith magick forum!"

A book I have on Astral Travel says that lucid dreaming can be triggered by an action or object that appears in a dream that lets you know its a dream. I guess bees are my lucid dream trigger (this is the second time I've had one of these and it lasted much longer then the first one I had: Both seemed to involve myself flying after seeing my hands). Odd.
 
 
Quantum
09:03 / 04.09.03
"Both seemed to involve myself flying after seeing my hands"
Read Castaneda.
 
 
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14:24 / 04.09.03
Actually, Peter J. Carroll mentions the seeing your hands/flying bit in his book "Liber Null", now that I think of it.
 
 
h3r
18:46 / 04.09.03
my custom answer/suggestion ( some of u must think sound like a broken record)...
look into "sleep paralysis" as well as DMT
sounds to me like a natural realease of DMT in your pineal gland, and some entities have been downloading information into you.

did you have a "tunnel" feeling"? hear any buzzing sounds?

especially the "flying" is a common part of the out of body experiences which happen in a state of sleep paralysis. I believe that this "comdition" happens very frequent, all of a sudden I hear SO many people talk about it.... I actually now believe it not a condition that only ertain people have, but we all do it, but with a different degree of wareness of it. ( I think it is considered a medical condition though)

Ever since I have been experimenting with DMT these shifts into what I refer to as my "tunnel" state (where I access the universe/different "realities" from a very different perspective) happen more frequently when meditation or during sleep.
I also have had very intense experiences when getting accupuncture , where I phaze in and out between vision and sleep, during the visons I am lucid. It is more a "conscious" experience then the stuff that happens during sleep/dream.

I heard one good way of inducing this state is to set an alarm for 3am, stay awake for about 5 mins, and then try to stay conscious while the body phazes into sleep. I have not seriously tried this, but it sounds like the experience I have during accupuncture, or when wakling from dreams naturally sometimes.
 
 
h3r
18:50 / 04.09.03
I just see big transparent spiders weaving their little webs

shanghai, the spiders & web strongly suggest programming.

maybe you could take a close look at your family history, genetics, etc
definitely try to get beyond the webs.

there is info on that to be fouund on the web, look for mk-ultra and related stuff.
 
 
Shanghai Quasar
20:07 / 04.09.03
Not to worry. I know what they are and I know why they're there.
 
 
h3r
20:43 / 04.09.03
cool. didn't mean to ba smart-ass.
 
 
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01:30 / 05.09.03
"tunnel feeling"? Buzzing sound? Not quite... In fact there was no sound at all...
 
 
Earlier than I thought
18:56 / 05.09.03
I recently woke the other half up by repeating the letter 'D' over and over again. She asked me what was wrong and apparently I sat up in bed and replied 'It's OK, go back to sleep. They are giving me my new program, in the big white place'.

I offer this merely for comparison.
 
 
h3r
20:43 / 05.09.03
last night I received a CD with Shamanistic drumming. Listening to it while falling asleep I had some serious visions. I dont remember everything today, but I kept waking up and falling back into the trance, in my case the previously mentioned "tunnel" which I usually find myself when doing DMT or my hyperspace meditations. I saw cave drawings on the walls of the tunnel, there was something that I now think could be what is referred to as "spirit animal", some strange turtle/fox creature. Also several people appeared , holding signs with cryptic symbold on them, I believe them all to be representations of my brain chemistry at work.
The drumming CD really did enhance my ability to go lucid and explore, if you're into that kind of thing I can warmly recommend trying it out. Very different than other "meditational" music I have so far used during rituals and for relaxation....
 
 
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03:03 / 06.09.03
maybe I can find some shaman MP3s on soulseek...
 
  
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