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I blame the society I was brought up in, but I'm just so much better at doing what I'm told than trying to think for myself. That just leads to confusion.
I'm putting this here because, well, because... I like you. And I want your help. It's probably more to do with the latter, but still. That and I think this is the one place I know on the internet where people seem actively interested in the same things as me, and thus might be remotely interested and/or able to help.
I have recently (within 6 months) finished a project of mine. I was quite pleased about that (I've never finished a project). Anyway, initially it was a book. This is because I went to visit a publisher up in Lahn-dahn and they suggested I put together a rough draft for them. Good.
I finished said rough draft, and all was well. I got it all scanned up and spent a long time putting the whole shebang in to acrobat. I grinned. Then I put it on cd's, and sent it to some agents and publishers I thought might be interested. Before that, I sent a cd to the publisher who had previously shown interest. Then I sent them an e-mail asking them to confirm they received the package. I heard nothing (it's been a long while) and have tried phoning them a few times to speak to the lady with whom I previously met. To no avail. This made me sigh.
I realise they never made any commitment to me, or my work, but it would be nice to get a reply. However, this has left me wondering what to do. My work is... well, it's rather like a comic. (I can send a .pdf on a cd to anyone who is interested, and could be persuaded to try and post some sample pages up... although that does make me nervous.) It's about 40 pages, with around four that are just writing. The bulk of it is black and white sequential story bits, with bits of colour art by the main protagonist. I'm not sure how to get it published - and as a book, or a comic? It is a comic, I know (save for a few pages of pure writing)... but how do you get a comic published? Self-publish? I don't even know where that would get me, and I'm so poor I feel guilty for living at home. And being a big spongey sponge thing spongier than spongebob squarepants.
I don't know if it's because I'm dreadfully inefficent or just have a greater ambition to be as lazy as possible, but all my trying to get published seems to amount to is sitting around and panicking. Then making plans, and worrying about them. Then trying to stop thinking about it so I can concentrate on watching telly/film/listening to music/sleep.
I just want to feel secure. I sometimes go to my mother and ask for a hug, hoping she will provide this, but she just tells me to bugger off and get a job. (note: mostly fictional)
So, uh, what am I asking? I'm asking myself that more than anything. To be honest, I feel like my work's done. It's increasingly apparent to me I am frankly inept with trying to deal with people and making any progress on my own. Obviously, I'm not asking this monumental task of you (unless you happen to be the kind of alternative publisher who wants to). But just some advice, a small publisher who might be interested. My knowledge of publishers, especially (small, alternative)comic publishers, is incredibly limited. I know what I should be doing (or what everyone/thing I read says I should ie, sending sample pages to people, covering letters [i only sent .pdf files to people - did I go wrong there??!!]) but I feel well.. stranded and increasingly desperate about going nowhere. Not sure if I'm sending the right thing to the right person or if I am if they will even care. Like you're in an exam and everyone has started leaving and you're stuck on question 2 and seeing everyone leave and do their own things is making it even harder for you to know what to write... Does anyone have any knowledge of how I can get my comic/book/personal project published/to see the light of day/make me some money/start my career?
I apologise for what is probably an incredibly vague, self-indulgent thread that is quite clearly asking for too much. Posting this has simultaneously got a lot off my chest and made me feel a bit guilty.
Oh, and mods move it wherever you may, I wasn't sure whether it went in comics (shall we?), books or creation.
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