There's gotta be a way to get everything back, as I lose around $100 worth of material possessions per week. The first few hundred times it bothered me, but eventually I realized that freaking out wasn't the way to go about my odd situation. I never got to wear my Monkey With Plug in Head t-shirt, let alone my hot green belt, and when The Crying of Lot 49 With The Rare Awesome Cover dematerialized it was very much a "figures" thing. Ok, so I've lost my cell phone (along with hundreds of social contacts) at least 5 times, and my wallet would be somewhere around the same. Evenautlly I learned to take everything in stride: for ever since I was little I've suffered from Dematerialization Nation. All those CD's and portable CD players and letters and pictures and artworks and... it just became something to accept. Can you really get worked up about dematerialization after it happens every single day?
Dude. For some reason, possibly because I've learned how to alter my material plain, things are constantly vanishing from it. Could this be something like a "side effect," and is there a way to counteract it? Today I lost my glasses. This isn't a good thing. I mean, what do I do if I lose my passport?
Recently I've been going about my odd situation by viewing the dematerialization as a sign of growth and progress. (since I've been unable to stop the dematerialization itself thus far- using it as "a positive sign" has seemed like the second best option) Learning how to not take material possessions seriously has been a great deprogramming experience, and if there's one thing dematerialization has taught me it's that the nature of reality is postlogichao and therefore flexible. Might as well "make my ego physical" so it can go bye-bye, right?
So ya, I learn stuff and stuff, but I'm currently missing my glasses and my head feels like shit. |