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Self-Confidential

Jack Rock-a-Pops

07:45 / 16.03.03

Hoping this won't get as flamed as the "not meant for this world" thread, but somehow it still feels like I'm getting Barbelith to do my homework or something.

Just wondering how everyone on this msg board manages to get through the everyday mundane issue of self-confidence. It's ridiculuos of course, and at my best I readily laugh in the face of fear, but what methods do people use to clean away the demons?

I'm guessing other people get it, that insult that of course they don't mean, or aren't at any liberty to dispense, but you somehow just can't shake. AND even if it's true, it's the truth so fuck it, right? Except you can't ... that voice that just won't shush up.

Hmm, the topics on this board that I've read so far attemp to push boundaries so far, perhaps assuming this prerequisite of emotional "maturity" so maybe I've come to the wrong place ... or maybe everyone else gets just as frightened as me, needs to stand back and beat their chest while thinking of their dead hero brother, or King Fucking Mob or whomever the fuck that prevents your shit from turning white.

Because you know you can, so why even doubt it? Aaah the humanity

10:55 / 16.03.03

it always used to sound like bollocks to me, and it actually still does, but confidence is gained by practising confidence. its like self discipline, you need to use it to slowly get more of it.

i remember reading somewhere that if you redefine confidence as a skill, it becomes less hard to imagine gaining it.(i'm not sure what you thought confidence was before, perhaps a trait?)

try top redefine it as the skill of being relaxed in the present. if any one point you find yourself lacking in confidence, just relax.

like i say, it sounds like cack to me half the time, but the other half it works. and it used to sound like cack all the time, so maybe it's working.

fucknose.

11:13 / 16.03.03

Fake it 'til you make it, man.

11:51 / 16.03.03

yeah. totally.

most of the people you think are totally together and on the ball are blagging it just as much as you are, only at a different level.

most of those guys in bands are hoping no one notices that they cant play their guitars for shit, even though you think they are amazing. they have just managed to figure out how to sound like they know what they're doing.

pointless and uncalled for

12:39 / 16.03.03

I do what I'm good at and leave the rest alone.

This is why I can cycle across the Elephant & Castle junction at rush hour on a Saturday and still remain single for over a year.

Our Lady of The Two Towers

19:21 / 16.03.03

If you are of the male persuasion, a skirt, sunglasses and a walkman playing VERY LOUDLY are all you need.

I am the crown-prince of insecuria but as toksik says, when I got a little from hanging around and making friend with people on here it then became a slippery slope on a gentle incline towards it developing.

Brigade du jour

20:13 / 16.03.03

Hear hear, Jack Fear. I fake it, too. I suspect everybody does, but then some people blow me away with their fearlessness. Bastards (of whom I am intensely envious and whom I desperately admire).

I was once accused of self-confidence and found it quite baffling, but then realised they didn't know me very well.