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Help me think! Please!

23:50 / 06.02.03

I find that once again I'm "sinking in the quicksand of my thoughts". Basically, I have to do a small research project at the moment. I'm trying to look into some of the things I've been talking about in my threads in Conversation and Headshop but sadly for me my tutor and I really haven't clicked. I don't think she knows that much about the internet, despite being into media and postmodernism, and she seems very unhelpful, vetoing my ideas without directing me towards anything else. Thus I'm left with nothing.

I can't stop stressing about this. I'm in my final year of my MA and I want to do well. I'm doing two subjects, English and Sociology and I've much more to be doing than just this fucking project. I just to know if anyone can recommend any techniques for protecting myself against her because she's really affecting me badly and that's blocking up my creative energies with regards to this project and putting me in a highly stressed place which is not helping anything. I need some protection and I need to calm down. I will do some meditation but I'd appreciate sugestions.

Thanksxxx

captain yossarian

01:10 / 07.02.03

you only can protect yourself by hard work, self-confidence and walking on your will-empowered way fast forward. if you think you can change anything or anybody with little magickal tricks you´re bloody wrong.
everything in it´s sphere... or would you evoke nymphs to save a drowning man? it´s better to jump physically in the water and use your own hands to save him. don´t believe in the easy way... it leads straight into weakness and stupidity. besides... it could be helpful to screw your tutor ´til she cries for more. then make her to help you through your darkness... :-)

if you´re just immersed in crowleys uniform you better not deceive with believe, as db sung...

captain yossarian

01:12 / 07.02.03

one more hint:

"mind is the traitor!
slay mind.
let the corpse of mind lie unburied on the edge of
the great sea!"

(AC)

07:30 / 07.02.03

Hi SV, I hate to comment from a distance, as obviously I may be complete clueless to the subtlties of the situation - ut are you sure you need protection from her? What about mutual understanding? Is she that much of a bad person?Failing that, what are the chances of turning up another tutor - one more sympathetic? Can you take these concerns up with you head of department or suchlike?

Bit of meditation would probably be good to calm down as you say, though obviously it's a stressful time for you, or a divination for another perspective. That it'd be my first port of call anyway.

12:16 / 07.02.03

Stress solution- kick the crap out of a football/practice trapeze/rave like a maniac/run for miles, whatever is your bag. Then eat, then sleep. It works for me- it doesn't solve whatever you're stressed about (for me it's money) but it gives you a clear enough head to approach the problem without the sludge, and often that's enough. I sometimes find I'm expending so much energy worrying that I'm not using any to solve the actual problem, just chasing my tail around and around and emitting high pitched moans

If it turns out your tutor's negativity IS a problem, a handy hand gesture is 'Avert'- I hold my hand vertically flat with the fingers pointing towards the person/thing (like shaking hands but with the thumb up) and twitch the hand to the right (or left with the left hand) from the wrist, so the incoming vibes are deflected away from my body, and say or think 'Avert!'. Simple enough to disguise in everyday life, I have found this extremely useful. But as Yossarian and Illmatic so rightly point out, it may not be necessary- I was once told the first rule of magick is not to use it. (Personally I add the Hitch Hikers Guide caveat "..unless you really, really want to")

19:10 / 10.02.03

thanks,
don't worry, I don't want to do anything bad to this person. I actually don't think she's that nasty so it seemed that working on myself was the best thing to do (isn't it always?). Still, if she gets to me again, I'll certainly avert her...in the nicest possible way...I actually admire and like her, which is of course why her harshness got to me. However, I do think it's worthwhile having some protection mechanisms for people/things/situations that get to you, whatever mode those mechanisms may take.

Cheers

21:21 / 10.02.03

finding a tutour to click with is very important, if you're able i'd definately try to get another. or just avoid the one you have as much as possible if ya can't change.

10:50 / 13.02.03

I think I'll go against the grain here and advise something completely different. I don't really subscribe to the school of thought that says magick should only be used after every other alternative has been explored. Sorcery is a tool, in the same way that debate, or intimidation, or seduction, or fighting are all tools. Some tools are best suited to getting certain kinds of work done. It may very well be the case that sorcery is the most appropriate response to a given situation, and all the time spent exploring alternative options will simply make the matter at hand seem even more insurmountable. Whereas a well timed bit of magick could solve the situation quickly and efficiently and with a minimum of fuss. Magic is there to be used. I'm not disparaging any of the advice that has been given in this thread, the importance of doing work on yourself rather than trying to influence other external factors, etc, but I do think that there are certain situations where a sorcerous response is the most appropriate option.

If you feel that you're being willfully obstructed by someone, and this causing you such a level of concern that it's seeping over into other aspects of your life, costing you sleepless nights, and bothering you so much that you find yourself asking a group of strangers on an internet message forum for advice. Then it's probably worth doing something a little more proactive than examining your feelings. Maybe you are complicit in the situation and bringing it on yourself to some degree, but then again, maybe it's a simple case of someone elses personal agenda trampling all over your own for no other reason than that said individual is in a position of power and can do so. As a magician, you have the ability to circumvent this type of power play, and the question of whether or not to do so, and how much force to apply, is purely one of personal ethics and responsibility.