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little ra
21:56 / 27.01.03
had a very strange experience last nite and i need some advice.
some of u will probally have read the thread i started about 'dreams' well this more or less a continuation.

i took the advice that was given about asking/talking to the presence i felt that surrounded me when i was ready for slumber.
it took around 2 nites to get used to this, u know!.... blocking all that other shite u get in ur head when u lay ur head on the pillow and trying to focusing and amplifying ur question through all the usual head noise.
well last nite as i was lying down to get ready for sleep..readying myself to go through the same ritual when, i felt the same presence again.
i mean u can really feel this!
the way i describe it is liek this: i start to get comfortable and ready myself to drift into sleep then WHAM!
i feel this intense surge through my whole body and i'm awake. i should point out this has happened to me on a few occasions. also sometimes when i am in my bed i can feel this prescence actually enter my room, i can feel its movement as well.
however last nite something new happened, as i closed my eyes, i do get slight hints of colour when i close my eyes, but this time it was more vibrant. they were plenty of colours drifting in and out of my closed vision, again i stress i'm used to this but then from the left side of my vision a bright spark of white light flashed. when this happened i felt a similar surge i expereinced with that presence.
at first i was scared i recited to myself a conversation i had and eventually i became more confident and less threatened. already i was beginning to drift of when it happened again(this could maybe be times 20 mins later) this time to the right side of my eye.

so what do u think is going on?

i'm not seeking answers here more a guiding hand.

thanx

ra
x.x
xxx
 
 
LVX23
02:48 / 29.01.03
Any sounds with the lights & surge?
Any old memories come up when this happens?
Do you experience any dizziness during your daily routines?
 
 
Sebastian
13:32 / 29.01.03
As I see it, the chap is responding to the invitation and you both seem to be out of tune, which is somewhat expected at an early stage. These things do take time in our terms. I would aim to lead the situation towards a most comfortable set and setting. Acknowledge its "signals" and responses, but propose to it to let you fall asleep calmly and with ease, and then to "meet" through a succession of dreams or a single big, unequivocally, one. Be strict with the fact that you have to fall asleep, you deserve it, and you don't need some bull flashing lights at your eyes. You may have to specify for consistency in the dreams -you'll know what I mean soon-, which is most difficult for these guys, but, well, we are supposed to be the investigators and puzzle solvers, so bear with it.

There are other ways, but common, normal physiological dreams is definitely the safest valve and the best starting point.

Other thing is don't push it too hard when you talk to it, just "think" in your head as if you were sending a short telepathic telegram.

Since you feel quite safe and curious I would think you are in a for a good damn ride, lil'Ra.
 
 
little ra
14:36 / 29.01.03
thanx chris and sebastian

Any sounds with the lights & surge?
Any old memories come up when this happens?
Do you experience any dizziness during your daily routines

thinking now with the lights and surge, yeah but i can't find a word to describe it, i supposse the surge was almost electrical, but still hard to pinpoint the actual sound i felt.

as for old memories i have been getting that for some time, and this always happens when i am getting set for slumber, it can of course get distracting though as well cos the smallest minute detail from my past will appear..for example:
as a wee boy i found a small lead indian lying in the ground. and i remember wanting not to loose it so i head home and put it through my letter box! i was just taken by such detail of that memory although it still is pretty hazy what i do see is in clear detail

i haven't experienced any dizziness....well not recently anyway.

i hope this is gonna be a positive experience.....sometimes i do get scared when i feel this prescence but i supposse it reflects what mood i am in, if it arrives suddenly then i'm not ready and do feel intimidated as well as thinking is this a haunting?????

this defeintly helps amplify that confidence.
i just get this idea in the back of my mind if i 'tune' into this frequency then perhaps i'm gonna be inviting more than one presence! although thinking as i type this i do believe there is more than one souce already visitng me.


hmmmmm

ra
x
 
 
Sebastian
16:57 / 29.01.03
Yeah, the tuning comes by itself, you just have to ask for it. The flash-light-bumping also reflects the mutual "enthusiasm" to cross boundaries. That's why I always say to take things with a grain of salt and stay cool, and actually I learn it from another source. Do not rush, stay cool, and set a nice goal that won't overwhelm you. Then you and only you have the hands on the steer wheel, or at least that's how you should act like.

It would also not be at all unexpected that you start tying into things from your early years, meaning infancy, but that's up to you to see. And in this line of thought I've been deadly curious to incidentally ask you, how old are you?
 
 
little ra
19:49 / 29.01.03
And in this line of thought I've been deadly curious to incidentally ask you, how old are you


i am 25....why u ask?
 
  
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